𝘁𝗵 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘁𝘀

Let you go

a/n: this is part two of "you were mine" but you don't have to read that to read this. Enjoy!

Close the book before it turns to tragedy. Tear the tree house down, give up the fantasy. Nothing to regret, since the day we met. Glad we took a chance making our own world. Perfectly imperfect like it had to be

I'll always be in love with who you used to be. I'll save the photographs and keep the memories. The curls in your hair, the secrets that we shared. The way that you would stare at me across the room. We laughed until we cried, it feels like yesterday

Who thought that one first kiss would turn into two heartbreaks?

"Y/n" the 15 year old curly brown haired boy laying in the green grass next to me called, "have you ever kiss someone?" his head turning to let his brown eyes stare at my figure

"if i would you know" my gaze kept staring at the shiny spots on the sky

"do you want to..." he wondered not daring to take his eyes away from my small figure, i finally turn to see him with surprise. "i can help you practice" i tried to hold my laugher but i couldn't help it but burst out laughing, "don't laugh!"

"you have kiss just one girl" i stopped laughing and turn to look at him again

I'm not going to deny it, i would love to get a kiss from Tom, but what if after that i wont be able to be without him? because I've been crushing on my best friend since i know what love is

"i would like my first kiss to be special" my eyes turned to the stars above us, "I'm waiting for the right guy"

"yes" i said after a while of us both staring again at the shiny sky

"what?"

"yes i want you to kiss me" i turn to find his eyes, his where big and shinning, maybe thanks to the stars. he sat waiting for me to do the same

when we were face to face he doubt on doing it, like if he was nervous, "i thought you said you want it to be special" i kept quiet

he gently placed a strand of my hair behind my ear and then moved his hand to my cheek. after our eyes being locked together, his head started leaning towards mine, ending with the space between us every second it passed, he stopped with our lips inches away form the others, his eyes locked down at my lips and stayed there, the next thing i know is that his lips are on mine, making my first kiss so special with the right person

his lips stopped dancing with mines and our foreheads stayed together for a while, "was it special?" he pulled himself back to have a better view of me, i nodded and he smiled

"i like you, Tom"

since we were young, I swore that I'd never walk away. but i had too, i was keeping you locked in a cage, not letting you fly, fly and make your dreams come true. you were there when i was here, always keeping my real feelings so that you lived happy making your dream come true, without worries towards one girl on the other side of the planet

"Y/n!" i heard Toms voice getting closer to my room, "Y/n" he repeated. his figure finally showed up on my door. my eyes stare at the 19 years old happy boy in my room, waiting for him to talk. "i got the role!" my eyes widened by what my ears just heard, "I'm going to be Spiderman"

i stood up quickly and rush to wrap my arms around my boyfriend that is about to be a superhero. he told me everything about his time making castings and how he got to know the news, as well as where he is filming and with who. i couldn't be more proud, his dream is becoming real

"promise me something" he said after the story time, "promise me that you are gonna be with me in this journey"

"I'll do if you promise me to never forget about me" we both smiled and promised

I'm picking up pieces left and right, now that our hearts are both untied. No one can say we didn't try, we did, for a long time. but we couldn't keep it, with you filming and me studying in London... we had no time. now I'm also making my dream come true, we both are happy

I'll think of these days all my life. our days together, laughing our ass off, being silly together, cuddling, kissing, just Tom and Y/n together.

It'll take time. it'll take time to heal our hearts. it'll take time to move on. it'll take time to let our feelings go

"it's the best for both of us" my exhausted voice said, trying so hard not to break, to hold on the tears forming in my eyes. my hands stopped putting stuff inside my bags and my small body turned to see a 24 year old Tom crying behind me

"i love you, Y/n" his voice crack. i lowered my head and a tear finally left my eye, falling down my cheek

"you'll find someone better" i looked up at his shiny brown eyes filled with water, "someone who can understand you and who can love you the same way you do" another tear fall, "I'm not that girl" i press my lips together and looked briefly to the floor, "i love you more than you love me and it's okay" i passed saliva before saying the next words, "because this means we are not meant to be, and it's better knowing it now than when it's to late" i know i broke his heart, so as i broke mine, but i cant keep going with this. i love more than i had too

i broke my promise. i walked away, but what i said was true, and i hope you understand

I love you so much that I've gotta let you go. It couldn't last forever, and I hope you find better. I can't forget us, can't pretend we ain't broken. i cant ignore the distance that has been growing between us, the insecurity i start getting in our relationship and of your love towards me. and you can't pretend you care as you used to. you are not with me when i need it the most. It was good together. Now I've gotta let you go