drown with me 。(an abbachio x reader ♡〜)

floating in water.

"you always float in water, eventually."

ever since his passing, this was a quote i heavily relied on. because i just kept drowning. and yet, i hoped and prayed that i would float. it's been about 5 months since his passing. and slowly, i was rising to the surface. not quite yet.

slowly.

ding! leone ^o^ has sent you a message,

smiling at the idiotic choice of nickname, you quickly skim the contents. 'you never got back to me about the coffee thing. </3 :(' oh, i'd forgotten about that. 'is today okay for u? :D' you smiled gently, thanking him for taking the words right out of your head, clearer than os days. 'yes, today is good. meet me at my house in an hour :)'

booking it to your bathroom, you took deep shower, basking in the early noon, before combing through your hair and looking as swag as possible. (a/n: i'm sorry. NO IM NOT XOXO)

resting your head on your knees as you waited on the porch for abbachio, you went over your daily tasks. you brushed your teeth. took a shower. got dressed. little tasks that made life a little bit more manageable. exhaling, you shut your eyes for awhile, as the lulling spring blooms made you sleepy. you got lost in the cherry blossoms and the new found roses, drifting off into a peaceful daydream..

"y/n," you lurched up from your doze as you felt two hands on your head, a semi smiling, semi confused abbachio standing in front of you. your wide eyes gave your intense scare away, as he gave you a smile and stood up. you grew accustomed to his slight techwear style. admittedly, you dressed like a (insert ur favs style xoxo) so you were no different. "are you ready?" he asked, his voice sending chills down your spine like always, low and grounded.

"yes, i am!"

a/n: IM SORRY FOR ALL THESE NOTES BUT IM SO PUMPED FOR THE ROMANCE AND I KEEP TELLING MYSELF "cat this is a slow burn calm down dude" AGHHH

"get up y/n, we're going to the best coffee place.. like ever." you blinked at his awkwardness, and smiled. "hardy har har, i do hope so abbachio, or else i'm not paying." you pushed him lightly two joked, subtly fist bumping when you guys maintained good small talk. he glanced at you, eyes fidgeting in his eyelids as he walked. "by the way," you braced for another idiotic joke you'd laugh at un-ironically. "you can call me leone. also," he added. "we're here."

god, after a long adulthood, you'd made a good friend.

slowly, you rose to the surface. you were so close to floating.

really floating again.

"lead the way, leone!"
sitting down in cushioned seats, you chatted about work and friends, brushing on topics of grieving slowly and subtly, quietly testing the waters.

"so, how're you leone?"

abbachio's pov;
chatting quietly, y/n slowed their pace, subtly signaling a weird question to come.
"so, how're you leone?"

i blinked, looking away bashfully. my insomnia had gotten worse, making it very hard to plan things with y/n. though i did enjoy their company, my eyes felt like collapsing already. 

"you look a little tired," they added. i gave into their questioning, too exhausted to come up with a good lie. "uhm, i guess a little bit!" i gave her a reassuring smile. "when i get home i'll probably collapse on my bed, although i'm sure i won't get a wink of sleep." i laughed, my insomnia weighed me down, although it sounded funny to me out loud. y/n's smile faltered into sympathy, putting her hand onto my shoulder. "do you want to go now?" she gave me a smile, trying their best to reassure me i could leave. still, i longed to hang out with people, especially y/n. she knew me better than most, and it gave both of us lots of comfort.

"but i like hanging out with you." i fake a frown, clasping onto her hands dramatically, k-drama style. "well," they added, their confidence shining through for me to see. "could i sleep over then?" she backtracked, saying something about apologizing for the insensitive phrase, insomnia and all that. but i smiled, hoping that maybe,

maybe i'd sleep well tonight.

"sure y/n, you can stay over. after we finish this oversized ice cream tempura."

"OH GOD SHUT UP LEONE WE CAN'T FINISH THAT!"

a/n: NOOOO IM NOT GONNA LEAVE THIS ON A CLIFFHANGER ILY TOO MUCH AND IM RLY EXCITED FOR THIS PART BC YK BONDING! ANYWAY ENJOY ILY <3

cruising the yellow tinted skies, we drove over to y/n's house as she picked up her necessities and clothes. i shut my eyes as she grabbed her stuff, thanking god i didn't crash into some car. as they hopped back into the car, i worried, hoping my home wasn't too dirty. "oh my gosh, PLEASE don't make fun of me if my house is a complete mess." i sighed, internally whining about first impressions and such. "don't worry, mine totally looks worse. it's alright."

unlocking the door, i let her into my yellow-walled house, and my minimalistic tone to it. i hung up pantings from bruno, and had flowers in every windowsill and table. my bed was made, and my one bedroom apartment looked cleaner than usual. thank the lord. "see leone, it's not too bad," they scoffed, bouncing on my twin sized bed. "you should see it on normal days. it's a mess." the moon waded into the early evening as (ur favs music goes here<3) blasted throughout the house, as you two talked and read about the newest release of (insert fav book series/manga) coming out. "i personally think this is extremely queer coded," you stared, a face of triumph on your face. "they are OBVIOUSLY just a littl—le fruity." i yawned heartily, earning a face of sympathy from y/n.

"don't give me that pitied face y/n, you should know that shit doesn't work," you sighed, shaking  their shoulders lightly. 

... pause.

she paused, stretching her long, nimble arms out to my shoulders, slowly massaging them as she bring them closer to hers, pulling me in tight under her collarbone. "yeah, but when's the last time you slept well leone?" i felt her slow exhale after that, i felt her empathetic tone scratch an ache in my body. my arm reached up to their shoulder, "a long time." 

...pause. but longer.

slowly, they wrung their hands through my hair, pausing at where the dark purple reached the lavender and where my scalp started and ended, taking care for every sensor in my brain that controlled the wonderful feeling i felt. my head molded into her neck and collarbone, her breath synced with mine. the nostalgic feeling that was fleeting, almost i had never experienced it in the first place. it was here. i dozed, trying to concentrate on her light fingers and how delicate their hands were. "goodnight, y/n. thank you—u." i whispered, tones of laughter hinting at my voice. "goodnight leone. and, you're welcome." 

and yet, slowly, slowly, i fell asleep.

OML HI U GUYSSS IM SO SORRY I HAVENT POSTED IN FOREVER SCHOOL IS KICKING MY ASSS RN UGHH SO THIS WAS COMPLETED IN THE SPAN OF A FEW WEEKS (yes i know it's bad) AND IMA TRY TO UPDATE AS FASTTT AS I CAN!!! ILY ALLL, TY FOR READINGGG :)