My Sweets

You're So Far Away

28 Weeks Pregnant
JESSA

I cling to Bobby. "I don't want you to go," I cry.

"I know, love. I'm sorry. I wish I could stay."

"It's just... I feel like we're getting so close to the end and I'm starting to feel a little scared."

"I know babe. It's only for 2 weeks. Bre and Noah will be here this afternoon to spend the week with you."

"I know. Then mom and Chelsea are coming and we're doing the nursery. It's just, I only feel safe with you." I can see that my words are breaking his heart. I know he doesn't want to leave either. He'll be in Thailand for two weeks to shoot scenes for his movie. After this, all scenes will be shot nearby. So I am unbelievably grateful for that. These two weeks are going to be hard though, since he'll be so far away.

He pulls me into a long, drawn out, passionate kiss. "I'm going to video chat with you every night. Call or text anytime you need me. It doesn't matter what time it is."

"I will. I know I'll be ok. I'm just going to miss you like crazy."

"I'll miss you too. I love you, Lass. Take care of my girls." He gives my stomach a small kiss before capturing my lips one more time.

I smile at him. "Of course I will. Love you too. Have fun and be careful."

I keep it together while he leaves the driveway. I don't want him to see me crying. It'll make it harder on him. As soon as the gates close, the tears come pouring out. I lock the door and make my way back up to bed. I'm so exhausted, I could probably sleep until Bre and Noah get here. The dogs cuddle next to me in bed. Oscar places his head right next to my stomach. I feel like he knows he has little humans in there. I reach for Bobby's pillow and bury my face in it. I cry my heart out until I finally fall asleep.

I awaken when my phone goes off. "Jessa Wessa! We're pulling up to your house now. Let us in and we'll go to lunch."

"Bre Bre!" I squeal. I slowly get out of bed and make my way downstairs. My balance is off so I'm very cautious with my movements.

In no time, Bre is flying in the door with her arms around me. She gives me a big hug before rubbing my stomach. "How is it possible that you've gotten even bigger since I last saw you?" Noah comes up and hugs me too.

"That was Lottie's wedding! It was a long time ago. These girls are growing. They have me plum tired. I went to sleep after Bobby left and you woke me up."

"Aww. I'm sorry."

"No. I've had too much sleep. I just can't shake this exhaustion. It's like these last few days my body has decided it doesn't like being awake anymore."

"Are you hungry? We were going to take you out for lunch but we can eat in if you'd prefer."

"I want to get out. Come help me change."

After a delicious lunch at a small cafe and forcing Noah to go on a pickle run, we're relaxing in the pool. I've discovered that my body feels it's best when I'm in the pool. The water helps support and distribute the extra weight in a way that I just feel good.

"I think I might live in here until these babies come out," I sigh as I feel tense muscles relax.

"Are you getting nervous?"

"Yeah. I am. Everything is going so good, but I feel like we're entering into a time where anything could happen. The goal is to make it to 37 weeks. The babies would be full term then. At 34 weeks, they would be able to survive, but they would need a lot of medical support. That's so scary to even think about. I guess I'll feel better once I hit 34 weeks at least knowing they'll be able to survive."