Pen - pen: Disarm my Pain

COINS

I think about my wallet,
And the mallet,
And rockets,
Under my bed,
I think about the work sheets,
And blankets,
Under my head,
I was too young to be stressed,
But what else can I do?,
This is the world that my eyes seen,

This is exhausting,
This is unjust,
This is frustrating,
Leaves you in disgust,
Leaving you griefing,
Losing your trust,
Emotion start flowing,
Burning your crust,

I wonder how can I get pennies,
When I have the bills,
Where can I pay coins,
When I have the deals,
How to evade the consequences,
When paying the seals,
And when the store closes,
The regret bring the feels,

This is not a dream,
This is the reality,
Working hard to live,
To strive,
To earn living,
Paying,
Stop complaining,
This is a transition to adulthood,
This is much of gaining,
I am just a teen,
Where can I get pennies?,
Unfortunate word for coins,
Sounded like tennis,
The last word was inserted,
To get such rhymes,
No wonder why I was poor,
I was full of dimes,

I take offense,
I build defense,
I evade pain,
I create vain,
I cut veins,
I can be insane,
But no matter what it takes,
It is me who holds my life,
Judges is always on the front of the stage,
You need to show off,
It is a choice,
Not an option,
This needs serious decision,
To better experience life with perfection,

There's no perfect,
But there's good and right,
Lights can be blinding,
And fame can be insulting,
Ready yourself on the fight,
For the penny spins,
From left to right,
And turns the tables down,
When you have the aces and crowns.