I didn't ask for this

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It's been two weeks, two weeks without talking to Vinnie, at all, I was buried in work because it's the beginning of sophomore year... yay? Practice has been killing me

Studying in a foreign country sounded good at the time, you'll have plenty of opportunities, they said, you'll meet new people... they said. I've got the official beginning of the season, you know all those big games I talked about? Yeah well, seems like the coach takes all the games as big games, because those weren't official games, they were just... games? In Spanish we call them "amistosos" in English that would be "friendly" but it means it just doesn't count and you don't have a ranking, but it still helps with the teams reputation. And coach was big about reputation

Now, I knew all this was affecting my relationship with Vinnie, and that you didn't see much of what has been going on between us, but that's kinda obvious cuz you are me and I'm you and I've been missing for a bit. But Vinnie and me were just, not seeing each other much, I was busy, he was just hanging out with hi new friends and I didn't wanna bother him, he's been dealing with a lot and his friends help him... I guess I gave him too much space, I just hope it wasn't enough for him to think I don't wanna be with him. Should I talk to him? I've been thinking about it a lot, but I don't know how to put my feelings into words. I'm angry, really fucking angry, but i love him, so much.

Right now I was getting ready for practice, I haven't had much sleep last night due to a project that I gotta turn in first thing tomorrow.

Definitely not because Vinnie has been in the back of your brain all night

Coach: look who finally decided to show up!
E: sorry, coach, i was finishing some homework and lost the track of time
Coach: this is the third time in a week, Emma, if you don't improve your game I'll have to suspend you, you are not acting like a teammate or as compromised to the sport as you did when you first came here, think about it- I nodded- now y'all give me 6 laps to the court, now

Lo: what is wrong with you lately, Em?
E: just stuff
Lo: you know you can talk to me right?
E: yeah i know, I just don't wanna think about it right now
Lo: okay I'm here if you need me
E: i know Lola, thanks- she smiled at me and speeded past me, making me laugh and run behind her- oh fuck you!!
Lo: gotta be faster, Stewart

After practice Lola and I were in the cafeteria, we didn't wanna drive to get lunch so we just ate something here, and our friend Logan came to sit with us

L: helloooo
E: hey L, how are you
L: better now that I saw you- he smiled and I returned the smile, politely. Logan has been joke flirting with me ever since we became friends, that I sometimes wonder if it's really a joke

Logan was a gorgeous 6'2 brunette of deep dark brown eyes, swimming team, big ass arms an legs, he was indeed so fucking hot, but Vinnie was the only guy I could think of that way

L: you wanna go have coffee later?
E: sounds good, Lo, you coming?
Lo: cant, family reunion at my aunts
E: shit, good luck

Lola's aunt Casandra was a little... peculiar, let's just say

At Urth

L: I was looking forward to this, Em
E: yeah, I like spending time with you, I really need a friend right now
L: im happy to be here, how could I not? Even tho you make me drink that weird ass shit, what do you call it?
E: mate- I giggle- it's just the Yerba mate you drink on that crappy ass energy bullshit you drink, but with hot water.
L: I prefer my crappy ass energy drink thAnks
E: the mate will grow on you you'll see
L: whatever floats your boat, princesa