Love me

6 Apartment

I was in my apartment by myself and I was freaking out. Not only had I kissed Chase the person that Josh hated the most I have betrayed Charli the poor 16-year-old. My eyes started to water again as I had only finished crying for about 4 hours. Mads wasn't here because I guess we weren't really on good terms.I had told her straight away because we were best friends but she yelled at me for 15 minutes telling me that I was stupid and a dumbass and that I didn't deserve Josh and that I should die. That really hit home so bad. I needed to tell josh but I wanted to tell him in person so I texted mads to not tell him I left the part out where I wanted to tell him well because I was panicking. I tried to call josh several times but he wouldn't answer. I was stressing out I had tried to call Charli but she was probably busy. i was wiping my eyes when cooper called me I immediately answered as his face popped up onto the screen. 

Cooper- ness i-

he starts to talk as I but in before he can say anything

Nessa- Cooper I hate myself I want to die I just kissed Chase Charli's ex-boyfriend and now Mads has left me to I don't deserve anything and now you probably hate me everyone hates me.

I fall on the ground and start crying 

Cooper- Ness I don't hate you your like a sister to me

I wipe my eyes as I lean on my bed on the ground as I bring my legs to my chest cradling them 

Nessa- I don't know what I was thinking Chase started telling me that Josh didn't like me and how he said I was ugly and a slut and that he was cheating on me and this anger bubbled up inside of me and I just remember the times he wouldn't treat me right and I wanted to hurt him as much s he's hurt me and i know I hurt Charli to

I quietly sob to myself as I bury my face in my legs. 

Nessa- everyone is fucking leaving me and I know you're going to leave me to 

i whisper quietly as cooper shakes his head

Cooper- Ness I know how hard it is for you You just moved to LA and your 17 you're going to make mistakes i know that josh doesn't treat you right and that's a fact and your right but the thing that your not right about is that I am going to leave you. I would never know what you're going through because I've been through it you think the only way to escape is to end your life. Running away from your problems isn't going to solve anything I promise you, Ness, that Life is going to get better I promise! 

 Nessa- I love you cooper your the best friend I could of asked for 

I smile sadly at him  he smiles back as someone knocks on my door i get up to open it as i see my manager Bree and best friend with 6 pizza boxes and 3 target bags i laugh as i open the door as she comes in 

Bree- sorry I was trying my best to come early but traffic was horrible

I laugh as i sit down on one of my chairs 

Nessa- bye coop 

Cooper- Bye ness stay safe 

I end the facetime call as Bree comes over and hugs me I melt into her touch. I sniffle as she plays with my hair 

Bree- it's going to be ok Ness 

Nessa- The whole world is going to hate me now, I meant to hurt Josh but not Charli 

I cry as she keeps on hugging me 

Bree- I promised your mum that I was going to be your mother figure in La and I will not break that promise so you are going to go to your room and have a shower and get ready for yourself and I will clean this place up ok? 

I nod  as I turn to leave I turn back and face her

Nessa- Bree I love you so much you honestly are my sister and best friend 

I smile genuinely as she smiles back. I turn back around and go to my bathroom to get changed and have a shower.

I finish my shower as I pick out a clean blue hoodie and some shorts. I grab a grey sports bra and wear that underneath. I grab my dirty clothes and put them in the basket in the corner of my wardrobe. I walk out of the room as I see my bedroom is all clean and that the bed sheets have been changed and made. I grab a hair tye and put my hair in a ponytail as I walk downstairs and see that the lounge is set and that theirs Netflix on the tv and the food is on the coffee table. I smile as I find Bree In the kitchen putting away some food 

Nessa- Thank you, Bree 

Bree turns around and sees me 

Bree- It's fine, come on let's go watch a movie while we eat 

she grabs my hand as we walk to the couch and flop down picking a movie to watch