Deja brown

54

August

"You must've lost your damn mind " I looked at her in disbelief.

"What ? I want you to find someone else that's don't have this baggage and trauma still"

"So you would be okay with me finding some other hoe?"

"No I would be hurt asf ...it's best for you . I have all this trauma and baggage.you deserve someone with out it."

"Girl shut the fuck up....I knew you had all that shit when we first got together..your mental illness doesn't define you. Your strength and courage dose."

"Yeah well it don't feel like I'm strong"she wiped her tears.

I walked over to her and held her In my arms. "It's not gonna seem like it to you.but to me,ro ,Chris,Lucas and everyone else that's been around you we can see how far you came.baby you never gave up .

"There was times -"

"Shut up ..you didn't tho that's what matter "

"Why haven't you gave up on me yet"she looked up at me.

"Why would I ? I told you I got you and that's what I meant"

"Yeah but don't it take a lot to be with me"

"I wouldn't say it takes a lot . It's more like a I wish you knew your worth and how special you Are type shit"

"Do you not want to be with someone more easier "

"Easy is boring ...I'm with who I want to be with " I pulled her up and turned her face towards mine . We locked eyes."I need you to know this and I need you to know this now . You don't have to say it until you are ready ..I love you "

"You love me?"

"With everything In me ..you got my heart baby "

She smiled and kissed me . We pulled away."thank you for not giving up on me"

"Never baby girl I got you forever and a day"

Chris

"Chris we have to go like right now" Anthony says

"I'm coming " I was going to do press for this new album .

"Good your still here ...so I got a new role and I have to go to New Jersey Thursday ." She grabbed a bag and helped me bring it down stairs

"Movie or show"

"The equalizer it's a show tho it's based off of the movie.queen latefia plays my mom"

"Oh shit baby up there with the big dogs ...im proud of you baby" I kissed her forehead.

"Thanks...have you talked to d"

"No " I sighed

"Dad" she looked at me and crossed her arms

"What? She chose august over me to stay and watch her."

"She didn't choose him over you..if anything she did it for you ..she knew you needed a break from worrying about her"

"I will -"

"Yes we know you gonna always worry but at the same time that's what august is there for . She's telling you that she feel safe and comfortable enough with august ."

"I'm just not use to it I guess .it was always me she would call on."

"Trust me dad she's gonna always need you that's never gonna change . Don't look at it as she chose august over you .cuz you and I both know that's not true. ..stop being childish and petty and talk to your daughter" she begun walking away.

"No bye or hug"

"No"she said continued walking away.

"CHRIS !!-oh my bad let's go"

I sighed and left out. Both of my daughters mad at me ain't that some shit.

I pulled my phone out ..knowing this girl she probably pissed. I clicked her name. She picked up on the fourth ring.

"We'll look who decided to return my calls...im sorry I was just in my feelings I guess...why dad....I guess I figured you would always need me.and when you chose august over me-....woah I didn't chose him over you ,I chose him to give you a break ,dad you been worrying and caring for me since we meet let him worry and stress out over me like you did and still are...It's not stress over you it's more so stress that one day our luck gonna run out and I'll lose you...stop you can't think like that ...d epilepsy is serious you could die from it...I know but I haven't ...yeah I know but I am sorry for the way I was acting...it's all good it's just gonna take some getting used to...yeah wyd...just finished writing this song I was working on and you know what i noticed ..what's that....I'm really an emotional bitch...I could've told you that..watch it I might be emotional but you know I'm still with the shits...Ahh an emotional gangsta..u got jokes I have to go tho I'll talk to you later ,I love you dad..I love you too baby."

She don't get it from my pov.

"You know not to get in your business but y'all should go to therapy "

"Therapy? Nigga please"

"Nah I'm deadass sometimes you need a third person to help y'all understand one another. We here let's get it" he got out the car.

I might consider it . Then I might not .

I greeted everyone on the jet then took my seat. I don't know why I do these press tours knowing damn well I hate interviews.

"Taking off" the intercoms yelled

Knowing I'm not gonna get much sleep. A Nigga bout to sleep right now.