after i confessed to john i felt the urge to
cry
i mean i tried not to but it was hard as hell
i was bitin my lip n kept my hands closed in a fist n everything
i didnt want to weep like some kid who dropped their ice cream after gettin it..
i was seriously thinkin that he was gonna leave n call me a name or say im gross n leave but he didnt
he just sat there..
before i was able to say anything to him he took a breath n began tellin n explainin to me the reason why he doodled me on his paper, why he'd occasionally bring me food and something to drink after a long day, why he worked so hard, why he checked on me n such, etc.. etc...
i
i was honestly speechless
i was thinking that the opposite would happen
yknow him stormin out of the room in disgust after my confession but he didn't
he actually confessed to me back
sayin he did all those things for me cause he actually just
loved me
i stared at him in silence and in awe for i never saw this comin at all
i
i just
i couldnt help myself but get up from my seat, walk around my desk, only to kneel down n give this guy a tight hug
well not too tight, i didnt want to hug his brains out but
im pretty sure he was in need of a hug after getting my confession thrown at him like a rock n after than just pouring all his feelings out to me
i just
wanted this little hug to last for a while but i didnt want to suffocate the lil guy so i slowly broke our hug and just stared at him
i knew my eyes were bloodshot i mean, i was close to cryin a few minutes ago and im close to cryin again after hearin this news
i couldnt contain myself any longer so i
got a hold of his hand n
planted a kiss on it
i know i knowww
what i did was overly cheesy but
i was seriously tempted to kiss him on the lips but i wasnt sure if he was comfortable with that so i decided to kiss his hand
man..
his hand was small compared to mine
i find it
prety cute to be honest,,
everythin about him is cute n lovely n nice n caring n just everythin
man hes just
perfect in every kind of way,,
n
i told him that
without sayin it in my head, i said it thru my mouf
