ME WITH YOU

28

Natasha

I woke up in my present era. The darkness surrounding me earlier was now enlightened.

“You’re finally awake” Felix’s dad said.

It took me a moment to recall I had an accident. Then, I remembered those horrified looks on Veronica and Ash.

“How is Felix?” I asked.

His dad looked away. Something is wrong. Something is bad. I stood up from my bed and ran out to check in the other wards. Where is Felix? I saw Veronica coming towards me. Her face lit up seeing me awake. I rushed towards her.

“Where is Felix?” I asked her totally loosing my control.

“Slow down and let’s go back to your ward. We can talk there.”

“No, you tell me where is he? Why were you horrified that time?”

“I have something to give to you and that will explain everything.”

“Give that to me right now!”

“I don’t have it. I will bring it”

“Go and bring it”

She stared at me pitifully and then walked away to find that something. I walked back to the wards totally scared and all the negative thoughts were running wild. My mind devised a plan and I went to the reception.

“Excuse me, Can I know in which ward Felix is?”

“You are?”

“His wife”

She checked the information but didn’t find anyone named Felix in the hospital right then. My heart was relieved. I stepped towards the ward, this time with my heart at ease that Felix was ok.

She brought back that something she mentioned. It was a letter. A letter from Felix. My heart broke down. I knew what it meant.

Dear Natasha

I was waiting for you to wake up. By the time you are awake, I will be gone. I know we were to go a long way together. I know we had many dreams together. I will not be able to accompany you in those dreams anymore. I know it will be more painful for you than it is for me. But do not worry, I will be waiting for you on the other side. (Do not meet me too soon, okay?)

I want you to know that parting isn’t easy but don’t let that ruin your life. Our little studio we created needs you. You know, its like my own child. Our child. We gave birth to it  together. Since daddy is gone, mommy needs to take care of it. I wish to see you creating new homes, new worlds in which people can reside just the way we used to do together. Please take care of it for me and in case you are switching profession, I will surely understand.

I love you Natasha in this life and I will keep loving you. You are the ray to my happiness. You and I were just meant to be. I wish I could have seen you growing old with me. I wish we could have visited your parents once again after the marriage. There’s so much I wanted to do with you but all I can do right now is write a letter to you.

I am in my last moment and do you know what I feel? I feel blessed to have you, to be your boyfriend, your husband. I am filled with love for you. The lesser the time I have, the more I want to be with you, the more I want to hold onto you. I am afraid when you look back, I won’t be there for you in person but I am with you always in the best possible way I can. Who knows maybe in the form of the moon or stars? Do know, I will be with you, cause to be without you is unimaginable. I am nothing without you. You have been residing in me just like a part of me inevitable to live without.

Since I am going, you will be on your own. Be strong and free spirited as you always have been. Do not fight with your sister and control your anger especially when in India. I know its difficult but you can. And don’t grieve for a long time because I won’t be able to take it. I love your smile and I won’t be able to live in any dimension without it. Don’t let it disappear. By the way, that something I wanted to show you for which we initially went, was a new home which I bought and decorated just the way you wanted. I hope, I could have seen your smile. But now its yours, rule it like a princess. Take care. I love you.

Yours truly

Felix