Soulache

Chapter 20

Bucky pov:

After training with Steve and the warriors three I made my way back to Loki's room that we were all sharing. Fuck I missed Y/N, the fact that Odin was putting her in danger all for the throne pissed me off more. The training helped release some of my anger but not all of it. I wanted her back in my arms safely, Loki wanted the same. Nat has been quiet too, Y/N is basically her daughter and shes been put in danger. The whole team had been affected. But right now me and Loki need to be there for each other, we can't protect what's ours when she needs protecting the most and Thor still doesn't know anything.

As I step in to Loki's room I hear him sobbing. My prince is hurting, hes been holding it back like he usually does so he doesn't break in front of Odin. I walk further into the room and see Loki on the floor shirtless, my eyes travelling down his arms and to the floor around him. His arms littered up and down with fresh, deep cuts. The blood was oozing from them, bright red polls formed around him. The cuts were deep, deep enough to kill a human, but not a god. My heart shattered seeing him like this, the man I love more than anything emotionally wounded enough to harm himself this bad. I rushed over to him and held his crying, shaking form in my arms pressed into my body. He was hyperventilating too, anxiety attack. God I hadn't seen Loki in this state in a long time. "Loki we need to get you to the medical wing." He shook his head that was resting on my chest, I was covered in Loki's blood but I didn't mind, he needed me.

Loki was in a vulnerable position and needed help immediately. " Loki give me one second" I relentlessly untangled myself from him to find a guard, none were outside. fuck. " Heimdall, I know you can hear me I need your help now!" within minutes there was a knock on the door. I opened it to find Heimdall. " Its Loki, he's self harmed again. It's bad and he's refusing to go to the medical wing. I think he don't want people to see him like this." I whispered while gesturing to my boyfriend.  I made my way back over to him and held him again while stroking his long raven black hair, comforting his shaking form. "I'll go and get doctor Strange and one of our healers, its best if we don't force him out his room in this state." Heimdall advised.

A few moments after Heimdall left he was back, Strange had opened a portal to get to the room. " Loki used magic to hide what he was doing from me, I would have notified someone sooner if I knew he was going to do this." Heimdall apologised. " Don't apologise, we just need to help Loki right now." I lifted Loki out of the puddle of blood and moved him to the bathroom as instructed. Strange and the healer got to work on Loki's wounds, I stayed where he could see me, while Heimdall stood guard to make sure no one entered. Once Loki was patched up he looked exhausted and weak. The vulnerability was clear in his eyes, he had went non verbal. He was scared and he needed me to comfort him. I began running him a warm bath with bubbles then walked over a kissed him on the head, he melted into my touch from the counter he sat on and I held him till i needed to turn the bath off. Once that was done I asked him if he wanted some toys in the bath, he chose them out quick and I helped him strip off his clothes to get him in the warm water.

Loki was in little space and I let him give me a signal on whether he wanted me to join him. To which he didn't, but I didn't mind. I was happy just cleaning him and playing with his toys with him in the bath.  He didn't play as much but enjoyed me cleaning him off. I was gentle but thorough. After his bath I helped Loki dry off and put him in some of my clothes. The room was cleaned so I didn't have to clean it. I just focused on Loki. He was all tucked into bed and tired. I got him hot chocolate and gave him some strawberries and cream to help encourage him to talk. "Thank you daddy." Loki whispered. I smiled warmly and tucked a strand of hair behind his ear and stared into his gorgeous emerald eyes before kissing his nose then his head making his pale skin blush a crimson red. It was so cute when he did that. Loki tried holding back a yawn but failed. "Lets get you to bed little prince, you need rest." I slipped into bed and held my arms out inviting Loki for a cuddle, he accepted my invitation. " Goodnight my little prince." I said before kissing his head. " Goodnight daddy." he whispered back before nodding off, while i held him closer. 

Y/N pov:

It has been a month and a half since I went into hiding. I could feel my powers getting stronger and Fandral was training me in combat. I was fighting with Fandral when I sensed magic, it wasn't mine or Loki's. The Queen. I instantly stopped fighting Fandral, he looked at me confused. " The Queen has found us." We both took fighting stances and scanned the room for any sign of her. I mumbled a spell and the Queen was instantly revealed to me. I held my sword at her. " I come in peace, I don't want to do you any harm Y/N. I'm here to warn you and help." She spoke calmly to me but I didn't yield. " What is it Frigga, why help me." " I know my husbands doings, I want to help you." I swirled my fingers and had the Queen bound in seconds. She mumbled words and the vines holding her didn't budge. She sighed in defeat and accepted it. I summoned Heimdall and he appeared quickly at my S.O.S. He froze as he saw Frigga. " I can explain myself, I want to help. Odin, hes changed just recently. I looked through his mind and found his plans and what he did to Y/N to gain his power as king. Heimdall I was the one that sent you snippets of what was going to happen. Odin is my husband and I loved him but not if hes like this. He needs to be stopped. Y/N that occult object Sif gave you for your birthday you need to retrieve it now. It contains your powers, you're getting them back slowly as you are on asgard but opening that object will give you them back quicker. Trust me" 

After a long thought I decided to do as I was advised and pulled it from my magic pocket. I was told to chant something but before I could the ball began to glow and float the light got brighter and brighter while I also began floating until the object burst open releasing all the power within it. The gold swirls darted straight at me but I couldn't move. The magic went straight for my head, sending a searing pain through my body. My screams were echoing through the cave. eventually it all stopped and I dropped to the floor. Heimdall and Fandral rushed over to me, I was shifted but not into my original form, It made both men stop yards in front of me and stare. I didn't know what I looked like right now but I knew my wings were out. I magicked up a full length mirror in front of me and stared at myself.

My skin was sickly pale, Hair jet black and long my wings were a lot bigger and my eyes were strikingly golden. Instead of horns, antlers were protruding from my head also jet black. I was taller than too. When I opened my mouth I noticed fangs, extremely sharp ones. My whole look was different, I felt powerful. " Y/N you don't even need training, you've been preparing for this for the past month." The Queen spoke from her bounds. I freed her and hugged her in thanks. I was ready to face Odin and see my Boys and my family. Heimdall gave it the all clear for me to come back to the palace and came up with a plan to have a ball to welcome me back. The Queen left with Heimdall and me and Fandral waited a few hours before heading back too. Heimdall wasn't telling anyone I was coming home to keep up the act that I'd ran off.

-timeskip-

Three hours later I was at the palace gates about to walk to the dining hall to greet everyone. I was so excited and nervous to see everyone again. I was in my battle clothes as they were easier to move in than a gown and would make more sense to wear considering I was in hiding. 

My heart was fluttering with each step towards the dining room doors. Fandral nodded at me reassuring me before opening the doors and stepping inside the dining room. " Did you find her?" Thor's voice boomed. He was still clueless. " I am pleased to inform Princess Y/N has returned safely." Fandral announced and gestured to me to enter. I walked through the door to see my family standing there. Loki and Bucky were both stood along with my mom. All three of the ran towards me checking me for wounds before pulling me into a bone crushing hug. Bucky and Loki held me for what felt like forever, crying in relief. Being held by them forever simply wasn't long enough. They eventually let go and allowed Nat to have her turn. " Mom." I said with tears in my eyes, I missed her. " Oh honey." We both held onto each other and cried before everyone came in for a group hug. The king wasn't joining us for dinner but was to greet me at breakfast, the plan of attack was into action after that the ball was when everything was to go down. But now I could spend some time with my family and friends. 

I've missed them all so much...

(A/N: Sorry it took so long for an update! I've been extremely busy with uni and trying to figure out a schedule for posting. This book is coming to an end but don't worry there will be a book 2 if everyone wants one! thanks for reading.)

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