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dearest grandpa

a/n: a little something i wrote to you, dada. i hope that, wherever you are, you're finally free of all the pain and suffering of the human existence and that you're blessing us all from above. we miss you, terribly.

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dearest dada,
i still regret the night they took
you to the hospital for the last time.
albeit we didn't know it would be
the last. if i did, i'd not be asleep that night. i'm sorry i couldn't tell you goodbye, one last time before you decided to leave the earth. it was
all so sudden, so severe. nevertheless, i'm so glad to have had spent the last six months with you, even though i might have been a brat at times.
there are a zillion things i could
have done differently, but we
don't get chances twice, do we?

i'd remember you, when the sun
shines bright and imagine that
you're standing right there in the
garden, fondly looking over the
rose bushes, your favourite kind.

i'd remember you, on nights when
the sky is clear and we can see the
stars. one of them is you, i'd know.

i'd remember you, when memories
strike me on a rainy night ─ the way
you loved to poems and the way you loved people.

i'd remember you, on days when i'm
happy again, and i'm in the room next to mine, the one where you lived.
and i'd absorb the fragrance of fresh flowers and warm candles and your presence, unseen.

i'd remember you, always.

and i'm sorry i never got to say
how much i love(d) you, despite
our differences. i miss you.
rest in peace, dada.

love, your granddaughter.

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