It was currently Friday. I sat on the floor with tears in my eyes. God please let this be negative.
Around 2 months ago me and tjay had a little sneaky link up as friends and it led to something it wasn't supposed to lead to and now I'm sitting here waiting on a pregnancy test to tell me if I'm positive or negative.
Ive told tjay that ive been feeling sick and having some other symptoms and he's been really nice. He's come over to take care of me, helped me do things and he even buys me food😮💨
I honestly don't want a kid right now I'm still 19 and trying to live my life. I don't wanna be stuck with a kid but my actions have consequences.
I was thinking about what would happen if it came back positive. My mom would hate me I don't know about my dad cause he's pretty chill. My siblings will think I'm a slut. My whole family will look down on me and talk bad about me.
Just then I heard my front door open.
"Londyn it's meee" tjay said shutting my front door. I got up quickly and hid the pregnancy test, I dried my eyes and ran to sit on my bed pretending to be on my phone.
Seconds later tjay came in.
"I bought you food" he said walking in with shake shack
"Thank youuu" I said smiling
He gave me my food and I started eating.
"You good" he said
"Mhm" I nodded
"You still sick" he said
"Kinda" I said
"If you still sick ima have to take you to the hospital" tjay said
"But you have tour" I said
"It's cool I'll cancel or go late" he said
"Nah I'll be good you don't have to ruin your plans just to take me to the hospital. If I feel like I'm really sick then I'll take myself and plus you got all your fans that you have to be at the tour for" I said
"I can take you on tour with me then" he said
"Tjay I'm good you go on tour and have fun and I'll be here happy and healthy" I said
"Aight if you miss me that's on you" he said
I laughed and we watched food wars while eating.
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I woke up from a lovely sleep and realised tjay wasn't here. I checked my phone and he left me a message.
Tjay⭐️🤍
Tjay⭐️🤍 I had to leave for tour. Remember if you still sick by the time I get back I'm taking you to the hospital fr so you better get better.
You Got it sir👍🏽😁
That's when I remembered the pregnancy test. I got up and stubbed my toe so mf hard I looked to check on it and this bitch was bleeding. I went onto my phone and searched up 'what to do if your toe is bleeding' because my toe has never bled in my life.
This mf came up with some Subungual hematoma. Like wtf is that. I put my phone down and carried on going to the bathroom to find the pregnancy test.
"Where tf did I put it" I said to myself
I don't even know where I put this mf test🤷🏽♀️ it's ok I'll buy another one. I put on a outfit to go out so I could buy another one.
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I was putting on my slippers and realised how fucked up my toe was like ts was hurting. I got my car keys and drove to the pharmacy. It was dark as a bitch out here.
I walked in and picked up the pregnancy test. I got two just incase I loose one again.
I payed for them and then went back home. I took one and waited for the results. I got my phone and checked the time. It was 9:32pm I had to wait till 9:37pm. I went on my phone to kill time. I was going through peoples ig stories. I checked the time now and it was 9:35pm. 2 minutes. I started to get nervous cause if I was pregnant there's no going back. Apart from abortion.
The time had finally come. 9:37pm. I picked up the pregnancy test and flipped it over. Cool ima kill myself now.
It was positive.
I started panicking and I was wondering how I was gonna tell tjay cause he's on tour.
I called my older brother Malakai because he was one of my favourites and I could always trust him.
"Hey mal" I said
"What's wrong you sound like you crying" he said
"I have but can you come round" I said.
"Yea cool ima be there in 5" he said hanging up
I waited for Malakai to get here and when he finally arrived I was nearly sleeping.
"Londyn" he said
"Hmm" I said
"Wake yo ass up you called me over here" he said
I got up and looked at him
"Basically" I said
"What" he said
"You know tjay" I said
"Yea I know that nigga" he said
"Basically" i said
"Basically what" he said
"Ummm impreganantanditshischild" I said
"Did I just hear that right" he said
I nodded
"You pregnant by him" he said
I nodded
"Congratulations" he said hugging me
"Your not mad" I asked
"Nah I'm proud of you. Your growing up. You've got a house, money, your own job, car your perfectly stable" he said
"Mom might not like it but you'll always have me and Makai" he said
"Makai?" I said confused
"YESSIRRRR" makai said barging in
"You bought Makai" I said
"Yea he was with me so I was like why not" Malakai said
"I'm proud of you lil sis" makai said hugging me
"I just don't know how to tell tjay" I said
"You wanna tell him in person or through the phone" Malakai said
