Fallen. // 𝑚𝑎𝑓𝑖𝑎 𝑠𝑚𝑢𝑡 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑦 18+

« CHAPTER EIGHTEEN »

« TW WARNINGS » (for this chapter)
• trauma
• abuse
• needle
• stalker
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I wake up in his bed but he wasn't there

I think about what happened before I fell asleep and catch my teeth between my lip fast enough

I look at a red dress with a note on it being on the bed

I manage to crawl myself towards it as I read the note

"Take a bath and dress up for me :)"

I catch myself frowning at the note yet I do completely as it says

I bungle my legs off of the bed as I put out a small jump to catch my feet to the ground

I feel the light shaking feeling in my legs and my soar bones making me whine

I manage to control my legs without stumbling into the wall

Alright maybe I did stumble into wall

And my toe might have caught the corner of the bed making me swear out loud

I move myself slowly to the bathroom while holding the wall not to fall

I lean with my back against the wall to pull off my shirt yet I get this lower stomach feeling that somethings wrong

Yet I continue undressing and fast enough move my body towards the bath

I wanted to take a shower but I wouldn't be able to stand for that long with my shaking legs

As I fill up the bath I notice my head turning with every sound force around me

Yet no one was there

I kept thinking someone was staring at me, it made me uncomfortable

I dunk my body in the steaming hot water

The burning feeling from the cold getting away turning into a sweaty warmth on my non reached areas

Although the water was so sizzling warm I could feel the goosebumps on the back of my neck, the small hairs standing straight upwards

The dark bathroom fills my attention as the shining bright sun catches my eyes fast enough

The burning pain in my eye as the sun is shining in it fills my nervousness enough to make me forget the scared feeling in my lower stomach

The feeling of a person watching you constantly, someone burning their eyes in the back of your head

— And everyone looked in shock at me and the person behind me —

I couldn't bother to turn my head as my eyes close and my body sinks further into the bath

Yet the next memory flies into my mind fast enough

— He drives away and I move my head carefully towards the shattered window and see they don't move

They weren't following us, I shake it off my mind —

I shake it off my mind

The feeling of horror creeping my skin

I shake it off my mind

I rub my skin, like I was rubbing away the damage people did to it

The damage people did physically

Mental health would never be restored

Maybe that's why I forgave him so fast, he killed my father, there was one second in my life I actually cared about him dying

The moment I saw someone I-..

Someone I-..

Someone, the moment I saw him (someone) shoot my father

He abused me, but I wasn't heartless

I didn't wanna cry, but it broke me in that way

The way that I grew up thinking being abused is normal, seeing the bruises on my mothers pale wrists

My consciousness would always be burning with that, thinking that was normality

That that life was normal..

I didn't cry because he died, I cried because he made me realize I was better than him and that I care about people

But no one cares about me

Yet the feeling of bitterness in my throat about him even sharing the same blood as me

And me having to share his name

Honoring in the way he wanted!

No, he won't get his last wish gifted to him like that

My legs shoot up in the air

I turn my body around catching someone watching my naked body dripping from water

"I knew it.." I mumble under my breath as dark heavy footsteps come closer barely a inch away from the bath

"Sit back down" his dark voice tells me in a violent order as I see a big needle almost a hospital kind in his hands

One that's filled with god knows what

I lower my knees back into the water and does as he says as I feel my skin grow cold

His hand grabbing my hear and pulling my head in the water

As I look into the water struggling to get my head back up I felt the needle push into the soft and now clean skin of my neck

Barely seconds later I feel my breath hitch in my throat and dying there

My eyes closing as they sting with the feeling of the soap foam I put in the bath earlier

Everything goes black

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Don't worry I know it's short but there will be a new one short after if not there's already a new one now, anyway thoughts?