last stage

hay guys

so guys I know I am probably late to update again, and I am wholeheartedly sorry for it, guys please give me a break until 2nd November, i have to leave India on 1st November, and yeah, of course, i need to spend my real-time or with my family and friends, if I tell u guys the truth...its a mess here, my mom is getting unnecessarily panicked for sending me alone, my friends are mourning as if I am dead, and yeah, if i don't spend time with them it's definitely gonna be my funeral.😂😂😂😂😂, I have to pack up, arrange my documents, and I need to calm myself, cause I am excited and nervous as well, oof man ...I am way too nervous, alone is a country, I have never been to before, with unknown people , complete new back ground , and etc.........i don't know how am I gonna start, nor I know how to manage without my parents.

I am glad I am not going to spend my life in a hostel .....i have never stayed in a hostel nor I wanna live, 😂😂😂😂, my maa had arranged one of her friends place for me , of course on of my mom's closest friend, but i have never met her nor talked with her.....so no idea what kind of a person is she , hope they aren't kadoos........and yeah second things that worry me are friends? even though i have lots of friend both in india and America, i do not know anyone from France nor from the internet nor from real.., of course, iam not gonna replace my Indian friends cause they are my life , but still i need company......., 

right now my heart is filled with questions both positive and negative .....iam excited and happy but a little bit nervous as well, cause this time i have to think as an adult, not as a teen or a childish person, one wrong decision could drag out lots of problems.........fuck  i have learned french, expect my french lectures in alliance Francaise i don't know any other french being, i know their culture, and language, but there society? there behavior?

my friends are advising not to think too much but these topics shouldn't be ignored as well..

until today I haven't raised any responsibility without my mom but now I have to ?

I am relaxed but still,

would u guys feel the same if u guys were in place?

any advice?

or at least crack or jock so I can laugh?😂😂😂😂😂😂