last stage

Announcement

Guys I know I haven't updated since long...actually alot is going on in my life that I don't have right mood to update....and this time life isn't easy....those who follows me on Instagram already knows...actually iam not in mood to publish this announcement too , but as most of u guys are asking about updates in dm...I.Will answer your question , actually  closest friend of mine who was always like a brother to me left this world few weeks ago , and forgot about attending his funeral..I couldn't even hug him for one last time...he was so close to me.....and my friends....as you allnknow me and my friends are extremely close like one family so it was not easy for us , and my soul sister who was his girlfriend is suffering from depression...and I could do is comfort her through phone..I cannot hug her and let her cry on ny shoulders like before...cause they are india...and iam stuck in france , and my second soul sister is also facing depression due to bullies....and I can't save her like usual.....all I could do with make sure she stay contact with psychologist and comfort her through phones..., lostbof friend who was like a brother to me takes huge troll in my life....and my bf's life..., and I can't even console..my love..my boyfriend with this loss...cause this time I can't console my self....despite all these happening...I should mask fake smile...cause even through I have more than 20 damn friends over here.....I dont feel comfortable enough share my pain..or show my true pain...,

And it makeit more harder...I still can't believe we lost him..its like nightmare...he was talking perfectly day before he died and next day......he breathed his last....nn

All of us are shocked....specially my boyfriend and my soul sister who was girl friend of our friend....cause he died in right in front of them..in their hands...so do you guy's think..comforting words  of mine by phone..is enough to make them stronger

I feel so helpless  for not being their.....and I wish I can return...but I can't....cause of my education.....if I get chance...I will definitely return..even if I have to lost my hard earned scholarship...idk...cause for me nothing is important than my friends  and family