Deep Impact (Shooting Star/Glee)

15

"Our conversation had a little bit of a dramatic ending, so we thought that we would like to visit you and we wanted to make sure that you're okay" Mrs. Roberts explained and sat down on the chair in which Kurt was sitting minutes ago. Blaine could surprisingly handle himself without Kurt. He wasn't sure why, but Mr. and Mrs. Roberts were so nice and he hasn't gotten the feeling that they made him responsible for what happened. Maybe it was also the painkillers which were successfully suppressing any feeling.

"I'm okay. It is so nice that you came around to look after me. I didn't want to collapse in front of you. Sorry. But I think it was a little bit much for this day. And I am so happy that you are not hating me. I don't know I had a feeling..." Maybe the painkillers were also messing with his head because he surely didn't want to say that to them.

"Hating you? For what? Surviving?" Mr. Roberts asked confused. "Blaine, we don't blame you for what happened. You couldn't do anything. Our kids were sadly the victims who didn't survive. But if you would have done anything different, maybe you wouldn't lay here. Enjoy every minute of your life. It is too short and definitely too short to waste on something like self-hatred or false guilt"

These words from Mr. Roberts brought tears into Blaine's eyes. Before this day there was so much fear that the families of the victims would hate him because he survived. But seeing these parents who have lost two children wishing him the best and giving him advice made him really emotional. Exactly in this moment Kurt came back into the room.

It was like his future life was shown to Blaine. Kurt was the one and only and Blaine would fight for everything to achieve his happy ending with him. No matter what. He couldn't help himself but to smile a little bit to Kurt. He could imagine all of it. Wedding, a house, kids, maybe some pets. As Mr. Roberts said, live is too short and Blaine couldn't wait to get all of his wishes right now.

"Maybe we should leave now. We want to visit Leo and Ava at the graveyard and it is getting pretty late" Mrs. Roberts announced and made a sign to her husband. "Thank you for coming. I really appreciate that. It means a lot to me" Blaine looked in both of the parents eyes and hoped that they would understand how thankful he was. They nodded and walked out of the room.

"Well, is everything okay?" Kurt asked immediately and sat down next to him."Better than ever. Did you catch Rachel?" Blaine asked. "Yes, I did. I told her to go back to New York without me. She is here since December and she really needs to go back to NYADA" Kurt explained and took Blaine's hand, which made him smile.

"And you do too! I know you want to stay because of me. But you make me feel like I am keeping you away from your career and I don't like it. You are sort of my anchor here and I don't know how I will survive school without constantly having panic attacks, but I love you and I don't want to stay in your way. I have Sam, Tina, Artie and Mr.Schue and the Glee Club to help me get through this. You don't have to be here by my side physically"

"We will talk about this when you're out of this hospital and when I am sure that I can leave you here alone. I am surely not going anywhere when you're not in the right shape" Kurt had his reproachful look on which didn't let him argue back, but he was fine with it. He just needs to be somehow mentally okay, then he wouldn't feel responsible for Kurt staying while his school had the usual everyday life.

"I thought I made sure that I don't want to see you here again" Maia came into the room with a hand full of papers but a smile on herface. "I don't want to be here either. There is nothing more I want to do than going home and sleeping in my own bed" Blaine answered truthfully. "Well, I can't give you that today, but if there are no complications you can go home tomorrow, with the same requirements as this morning. I talked to your doctor and he said that he wants you to take a wheelchair for the first five days, just to make sure that you don't overexert yourself. In a few minutes June is coming, so I hope I see you only for the check-ups" She explained and left the room.

"Well, I think I need Artie to teach me how to go to school in a wheelchair"Blaine sighed. "We will get through this. I can go to school with you the first day and help you" Kurt offered and smiled. "You heard Maia. I can go home tomorrow. Then it is weekend and I have the whole time to rest and spent time with you, but I want you to go back to New York on Monday. No contradiction! I am fine and I think Sam and Tina will promise you that they will not leave me alone"

"I don't think that I am capable of leaving you. Since the shooting I have a serious fear of loss and I don't know how I am supposed to go to school when I am always worrying about you and your health" Kurt admitted. Blaine was a little bit surprised that he was so honest with his feelings. They both weren't that good in telling their true feelings to each other.

"Okay, what about this. I am thinking of going to a therapist, as the doctor recommended to me, to help me with my panic attacks and I can talk to Sam, he can send you updates on how I am doing in school. I am doing anything that you are comfortable with leaving for New York. I want you to follow your dreams and I am going to be okay" Blaine explained and hoped that Kurt would be satisfied with his offer.

"I am really not comfortable with leaving you here alone. But it seems like you would do anything to get rid of me and sent me back to New York..."Kurt said and had a sad look on his face. "No... No, that is not the point" Blaine immediately defended this statement, but suddenly Kurt started to smile. "I know what you meant and if you do what you just said I consider going, but I will wait until Sunday to decide!" Kurt announced and placed a kiss on Blaine's lips.

They talked for another hour about this topic, but Blaine was pretty sure that he had convinced Kurt to go back. It made him sad to think about the next few months without Kurt on his side, but he had this feeling that he would get through this. As soon as Blaine saw that Kurt was fallen asleep with his head on the bed, he felt that this exhausting day had his effect. He was tired and immediately fell into a not so peaceful sleep.