My Thoughts

FML

Maybe there's a reason why everyone leaves me.. Romantic partners and platonic caregivers alike. Maybe it's because of my mental health issues, or that I'm too clingy, or can't trust easily. My second relationship was one of my better ones. The person I was with was absolutely amazing and a wonderful human being. I don't exactly recall how we met, but we met here. We were together for a while but they just suddenly disappeared for a year or so. I thought something horrible had happened and immediately feared the worst.
I cried so much when they didn't come back. I nearly did some really bad things.

Last year I got a message from them and I honestly didn't know what to do. Obviously I still had feelings for them, but it turned out they had moved onto someone new. I was really happy for them, but I couldn't help but feel like I had done something wrong.

Even now I still have those thoughts and always think of what I could've done to keep them around and in my life.

But maybe I'm just destined to be alone, right? Because I've done something wrong and this is how I'm paying for it? I just wish I knew what I did wrong so I can fix it and finally be happy.. I just.. I don't know what to do anymore..