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7. Dinner & A Movie

18/10/20

It's Sunday evening and I am expecting Hoseok to show up at my place in about fifteen minutes. We agreed for him to come over at 5pm.

Before leaving their company building yesterday, Hoseok asked me if I had dinner plans the next night, meaning tonight. He said he had some space in his schedule and wanted to have dinner with me.

To be honest, after spending a good amount of time in the practice room at BigHit, I didn't want the time to ever end, especially my time with Hoseok. So, of course I agreed to dinner.

And, I'm not going to lie- I'm a bit nervous about him coming over.

I sensed a little bit of sexual tension at one point yesterday between the two of us.

The last thirty minutes I was there, Jungkook and Jimin excused themselves to tend to some other business. Hoseok stayed behind saying he had a little more time to spend with me.

I had asked Hoseok to show me a particular move he did earlier during our dance session. And, when he attempted to show me, he stood right behind me and placed his hands on my waist and his body was insanely close to mine. He helped me roll my body a certain way, and when he did, I felt so hot by the action.

I tried to not make myself think such racy thoughts, but it was hard when my back was against Hoseok's chest and he smelled so good with whatever cologne he was wearing. The smell suited him perfectly. It was musky but it also had this sweetness to it.

Am I attracted to Hoseok?!

Well, with the sexy way he moves when he dances and the way he smiles and smirks at me, I honestly cannot help but be physically attracted to him.

Then, since we've been communicating these past couple weeks, I can't help but be drawn to his personality. I've just been enjoying the conversations we've had with each other where we would switch from Korean to English a lot.

I don't know if it was just me, but yesterday, there were times when he looked at me in such a way that I just wanted to throw myself at him.

Maybe it's all in my head. He can't be attracted to me. There's no way.

I know we started to talk as friends, but I'm starting to develop more of an attraction to him, which worries me.

He's a fucking idol.

He wouldn't want someone like me. Or, at least he wouldn't want to jeopardize his career to be with someone like me.

Don't get it wrong. I'm not putting myself down. I'm pretty confident in myself, but I figure he's better off with someone in the entertainment industry who understands the struggles he goes through. He doesn't need to be with some foreigner who's only here for a limited time to teach English.

As much as I want this dinner to be a date, I need to just expect that all we'll ever be is friends. I just need to stop being so attracted to him. I just need to keep myself from letting my crush on him go away.

I can do this.

I've been spending all late afternoon tidying my apartment and making sure it's spotlessly clean and presentable for his visit. He said he'd bring us dinner because it would be a lot more safe for him. I imagine the paparazzi would go absolutely bonkers if they saw him out with some random foreign woman. And, I don't want that attention, so eating in is totally fine by me!

I hope he finds my place cozy even though it's a tiny space. I feel like I've done a great job making the place comfortable for me to live in. And, since I love decorating, I feel like my place really shows my eclectic personality.