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Chapter 96

Blaise

Everyone says their goodbyes, to Ella. Expect three people. Alejandro, Davina and I, we all sigh looking at Ella. Her breathing, in and out no longer happened. I couldn't believe she was gone.

It'll all hit me in the morning, most definitely. I keep opening and closing my eyes, repeatedly to see if I was having a nightmare. Unfortunately, it wasn't. Others may say ' your handling this so well ' oh no I wasn't. Whenever I get to the house, I'm drinking my fucking ass off.

" So are we doing this separately? " Alejandro questions, Davina takes in a sharp shaky breath. " I can do mine separately " Alejandro says, Davina and I both nod. " Davina, I want you in here with me. Is that okay? " I question, with pleading eyes looking into Davina's. She then smiles, weakly. " Of course " she says, I then nod.

Alejandro gets up, taking one quick glance at Ella then sighs, making his way towards the door. With that he opens the door, and closes it behind him. I look back, at Davina seeing her look at Davina with sad eyes. I then sigh myself. " You wanna start? " I question, she then nods lazily.

" Oh Ella " she says, smiling weakly. She must've been thinking of memories. Because, frankly that's all I've been doing since finding out the news. " I will always cherish your memory. No matter what, I'll love you forever " she says, her voice begins to break. It broke me seeing her like this.

Everyone was so devastated. It's crazy, Ella was just here a few hours ago. I miss her so much already. I touch Ella's hand, interlocking it with mine. Her hand, was so cold.

I missed her bubbly, personality already. I miss her dumb jokes. I miss her barging through my door for absolutely no reason. " You we're the kind of friend that if you were to call at four in the morning, to sad to even say hello, I will listen to your silence until you fall asleep " she says, looking at her. Everything about this situation, was generally just sad.

I felt myself grow cold. Not physically, it wasn't the temperature. It was my heart. " You made me feel whole, and who understands me when the world doesn't understand me at all " she says, sadly. " You will always be my best friend, my human diary, and my other half. You mean the absolute world to me my love, and I will always care and love for you " she says, smiling weakly.

After Davina said her parting words with El she gives me a nod letting me know it was my turn. " Oh boy " I say, taking in a shaky breath. " I never thought I'd have to say goodbye to you so soon " I say, with my voice shaking. " Your body feels so cold, yet once so warm " I say, my eyes begin to sting. Tears threatening to spill.

" I'm gonna miss you so fucking much " I sob, finally breaking. Davina moves closer to me, sitting her chair besides mine. She puts her arm around me, I do the same with her. My free hand, holding Ella's. " I remember you were the one, who always made Gino and I make up " I say, chucking painfully remembering all the memories.

I find myself crying in the corner of my siblings and I's room hugging myself. My brother and I had gotten into a fight. He said that our father didn't love me. He was most likely right, but it hurt like hell. The door then opens, I see my sister come in.

At the time I was about ten, she was about nine. My brother was twelve. " B are you okay? " She asks, sounding generally concerned, closing the door behind her. She makes her way towards me, kneeling down meeting my height. " Gino said that papa didn't love me anymore " I sob, Ella then chuckles.

Did I say something funny? Her eyes sadden looking, at my confused eyes. My eyebrows were raised, she then chuckles again. " He got upset because, his crush wanted you and not him " she says, I then remain a confused expression. " Elizabeth? " I question, she smiles nodding her head yes.