Where I Belong

Field Trip of Tension

Chapter 11 – Field Trip of Tension

Waking up the next morning was one of the scariest but also painful things that Regina had ever done. It was like she was living in some twilight zone. She could not believe that she had watched Emma walk away and she just stood there; she didn't fight to get her back. She knew that it would have been foolish to do so, she was drunk and wasn't thinking clearly so she did the responsible thing; she went to sleep it off.

Now in the light of day, she was scared for two reasons. First, she was scared that should had lost Emma. She just found her and now she could lose her forever. Secondly, she was going to have to face her today, because they were going to stuck together on the field trip. "Fuck, can my life suck anymore?" She went through her morning routine while simultaneously trying to figure out a way to win Emma back. "I'll just send her a huge bouquet of flowers," she said to herself before immediately shaking her head. "Are you daft Regina?! How do you even think that flowers are good enough!" She knew that shouting at herself in the car, would make her look like a mad woman, but that was how she was feeling currently. She continued her ranting all the way to the school and when she stepped out of her car and arrived at the bus, she wasn't any closer to figuring out what she was going to do. She knew she needed to talk to the woman, but she didn't know if she would get the chance. Taking her phone out, she dialed the blonde, waited and unsurprisingly it went to voicemail. Hi! This is Emma. If I'm not answering, don't take it personal. I suck at phones. Leave a message for me please.

Regina listened to the message and felt the tears well-up in her eyes at the sound of her lover's voice. She missed her already. Before it was too late, she cleared her throat and started talking. "Emma, H-Hi. Listen I know you don't want to hear from me, but I really think we need to speak. This is a big misunderstanding and there is nothing going- "PEEP. The sound of the machine cutting her off made her heart sink in her shoes. Just as she was about to dial the number again, she heard the yellow bug coming around the corner and skid to a halt in the parking spot closest to them. Emma emerged from the car and when she looked up Regina could clearly see that she had been crying. She hated the fact that it was because of her, even if it was a misunderstanding. God, Emma. Please give me a chance to explain. She thought.

The morning's preparations were tense; filled with longing glances from Regina and short curt answers from Emma. The bus ride wasn't any better. Once they arrived, they were split into two groups. Regina and Tina each took one group and because Regina's was larger, they decided that Emma would accompany her as well. Regina felt hopeful. At least Emma would be stuck with her the whole day.

Her hope was short lived as the tour started at the Apartheid Museum. Emma was always purposely keeping the students between them. Every time Regina would make her way closer, Emma would duck and disappear. It was so frustrating. By the time they moved on to the Baragwanath Hospital for the second part, it was almost three ours in and Regina had yet to say a word to the blonde. She spent that part of the tour trying to get it together. When the finally stopped for lunch in the heart of Soweto, she had finally had enough. Emma ducked away and into a bathroom and Regina followed. She reached the door just before it was closed and pushed her way in. The poor blonde's eyes were big and her body at the ready to fight the intruder. It was so adorable Regina almost started giggling. Instead she held up her hands in an apology and waited for the blonde to say something.

Emma was looking at her with a fierce anger in her eyes that Regina had never seen. Taking a second to think about Emma's past, she knew that this was a dick move, but she had no other choice. She straightened her spine and took a deep breath before looking Emma dead in the eye. "I know that you are angry, but I need- "she was cut off with a curt "NO!" from the blonde. She tried again. "Emma, please just list- "again she was dismissed but Emma shouting "NO! I don't care what you have to say!" She realized that she was not going to get this out, so she made her next idiotic move. She slammed the blonde into the wall and kissed her with all the passion she could, trying to convey to her that she needed to give her a chance. She pulled back the tiniest bit and tried again. "I don't want anyone else." She whispered. "I was not out on a date." She tried to keep her sentences as short as possible and to the point. Hoping that it might work in her favor. It seemed to be working better than the first time, so she continued. "I want you. ONLY. YOU." She leaned in closer, her lips could already feel the heat from the blonde's mouth, and she whispered again. "Please Emma. Give me a chance to explain." The she gave her the softest, sweetest ghost of a kiss before pulling away, turning around and leaving the bathroom; hoping that giving the blonde the space now, would lead her back to her.

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Once Regina returned from the bathroom, she checked in on all her students. They were all having a lunch at a local restaurant and enjoying the atmosphere with the music and authentic food being served. The live band was a bug hit and after they finished their meals some of the students started dancing in a little area in the front. They spotted their teacher strolling around and pulled her into the group. Regina loved to dance and although she wasn't that good at dancing to this type of music she joined in, not afraid to make a fool of herself in front of her kids. She was laughing and shaking her hips to the beat and didn't notice a certain blonde emerge from the bathroom.

Emma stood enchanted by the vision before her. God this woman was beautiful. She knew that she shouldn't be thinking these things. She was pissed at her and the ache in her chest was still there, but the sight of this regal woman, letting go and having fun was the most beautiful she'd seen her yet. At that very moment the brunette in question looked up and locked her gaze with the emerald ones across the space. It was coupled with a magnetic pull that she could not resist, and she moved closer in a trance until she was standing in front of the woman. She started moving along with the beat and soon they were dancing in complete synchrony with each other, although they weren't touching, it was a surreal moment where they both felt the passion bubbling between them. After a few minutes, Emma snapped back to reality and with a quick gesture she signaled that the brunette must follow her outside.

Finding her way outside, Regina spots Emma standing under a tree. She looks so nervous that Regina can't help the sinking feeling in her gut. This doesn't seem like a good thing. She makes her way towards Emma but pauses just before she gets too close to the woman who has stolen her heart. Emma is gorgeous, with her beautiful golden locks hanging loosely around her shoulders. It takes Regina a moment to gather her thoughts enough to remember that they were supposed to be talking about everything. "So, you wanted to speak to me?" Regina asks as she makes eye contact with Emma. Emma nods her agreement so subtly that Regina almost misses it. The blonde then squares her shoulders and clears her throat.

"I am sorry for overreacting last night. I guess my feelings just got in the way and it caused all this mess to happen. That's why I think it is better if we just call off our arrangement." Emma says, before taking a deep steadying breath to calm her nerves, or to gather the strength to continue. Regina's heart is breaking where she stands, unable to stop the tears that are forming in her eyes but before she can say a word Emma continues. "I have been lying to you Regina. I never wanted our relationship to be purely sexual. I've wanted more from the very beginning and I thought that it would be better to have a small part of you than to have nothing at all. The problem is that I can't deal with you not loving me back. Because I do. I have been falling in love with you from the moment you walked into that restaurant and every second I spent with you only served to prove me right. I love you Regina and that's why I can't see you anymore. It just hurt too much not to be able to be with you fully. I'm sorry." As the blonde finishes her speech, she doesn't wait for a reply before she turns around and walks away.

Regina is left staring after the woman in utter shock. 'Emma love's me' she thinks to herself. All the negative emotions vanish in that instance and a beautiful smile takes over her face. "God Emma, you're such an idiot sometimes." She turns around wildly, searching for their tour guide. When she spots him, she runs over to him excitedly. "Sibu! Sibu! I need to ask you a gigantic favor!"

The poor man is bewildered by the frantic woman running towards him. When she finally gets the words out, he relaxes and gives her a friendly smile in return. "Miss Mills, I am a man who can do many things. What is it that you need me help with?"

Regina smiles back at him. "I need to show the woman of my dreams that I love her."