TW: self harm, depression, suicidal thoughts
This is not in a BFDI characters POV, this is an actual vent in my POV.
This is just about my gender dysphoria. It is very internal, so I am sorry.
One day, they say, that I will be whoever I want to be. I say I want to be a boy and a author, they glare at me.
How many years will I have to wait until I can rip off this skin of lies and be me? How much more do I have to wait until I am free from these chains binding me down to the ground?
How many cuts will it take to be okay? How much time do I wait for me to have help?
I listen to these lies everyday, they are like flies surrounding me buzzing.
She will always be a girl.
Not a boy.
You will never be a boy.
When will I finally be saved from this bottomless pit of despair. Maybe death shall free me from these chains of lies, maybe someone will save me, too many thoughts.
