𝐴 𝑃𝐼𝐸𝐶𝐸 𝑂𝐹 𝐶𝐴𝐾𝐸 | ✔︎

-Part six-

Zara's pov

It's now the next morning I am exhausted I didn't get any sleep last night because I kept waking up from nightmares I still get anxiety attacks and nightmares from the rain and last night it was raining hard

| flashback 13 years ago|

I've been a bad daughter, that's what mother and father have said, I didn't mean to forget to clean the kitchen I just forgot

it's another really rainy day

Mother and father were drinking the smelly drink called alcohol I saw the bottles one was called whiskey the other bourbon and there was many more, when they drink they become even scarier than they usually are

Right now I am locked up in a room while my parents finish their drinks, any minute they will come and give me my punishment for being a bad daughter

They call me mean names like slut and whore I don't know what they mean but I know they're not nice, my friend in school says it's when you're with guys too much or something but I don't have any guy friends so I don't know how I can be a whore or slut

"GET UP WHORE" father shouts

"COME ON SLUT LISTEN TO YOUR FATHER" mother shouts, they both enter the room

The rain is hitting the roof and while being locked up in the room after a while it sounds like needles poking my brain it's starting to rain harder all of a sudden I'm being thrown around like a rag doll

Father is kicking me over and over again with his feet and mother is slapping and hitting me and there both laughing

"THE MORE YOU CRY YOU SLUT THE MORE THE PUNISHMENT GETS WORSE" father shouts while throwing a blow to my stomach

I've given up pleading for them to stop, they have punished me, locked me up, hit me, starved me since I was a very little girl I have been learning to cook myself because my father and mother don't think I deserve to be fed, so I have to make myself food while they're at work or out partying or drinking at bars

After what seems like forever they finally stop

Father grabs my throat and says "when that rain stops you get out of the room, every rain droplet let that be a reminder of the tears you shall never shed in this family, you got it you slut" father shouts in my face spit covering me while he does

"Yes father" I manage to choke out

And yet again I am left alone in the dark cold room listening to the rain, a reminder that I shall never show emotion and that each tear is another hit, it's raining a lot that's a lot of hits...I must not cry I tell myself and I keep saying that over and over until I fall asleep on the cold floor

| end of flashback |

Rain has always held a bad memory to me, it reminds me of every hit, every punch, every minute I spent in that cold cold room with no food or water for hours sometimes up to a day when my parents forgot about me

I had maybe 4 hours of sleep tonight

I grab my phone off the nightstand to see a few notifications

There's one from Ava asking if I'm okay, she knows that rain brings back bad memories from my past, Ava doesn't know about the abuse and the torture I had to endure, not because I don't trust her I just don't want her to look at me as this broken little flower that she has to be careful around

But she knows that rain and I don't mix and something I love about Ava is she doesn't press for answers if you don't feel comfortable with it

Zara: hey Ava I'm not sure I didn't get much sleep tonight so I think I might come into work a bit later if you're okay with being the boss for a bit while I try to get myself together ♡︎

Ava: zee bee, of course, I'll watch get all the rest you need, if you want after my shift I can pick us up some food and come over to you and we can have a cozy girls day, don't worry about it I'll cover for you for the whole day, your deserve a day off you work yourself too hard sometimes

I don't know what I did to deserve a friend like her I love her so much I would do anything for her

Zara: thank you so much Ava you don't understand how much I appreciate it, I think I might take the day off if you're sure, the rain is picking up more, I love you ♡︎

Ava: absolutely! I'll cover for you today, rest up beautiful and when my shift ends I'll pick up some food, I love you ♡︎

The other text was from Enzo

Enzyyy: good morning Zara, if you are not busy today we can go out somewhere to discuss more about the nanny situation if you're free

Shoot I don't want him thinking I don't wanna meet him but I don't wanna risk having a panic attack because of the rain

Zara: good morning Enzo, I really wanna meet up but I can't today I'm sorry, are you may be free to meet up in 2 days?

I get up to brush my teeth and shower after I finish everything I come back to bed and see Enzo responded

Enzyyy: your good, ya we can meet up in 2 days just let me know what time you're available

Zara: okay perfect how about 6 pm?

Enzyyy: that sounds good see you at 6 pm, would you like me to pick you up from your place or would you rather meet up somewhere?

Zara: I can drive and meet you wherever you wanna talk

Enzyyy: okay perfect I'll send you the address to the restaurant, dress nice, I'll see you at 6 pm, the reservation will be under Moretti

I look at the address he sent and OH LORD does this man have money!! Why am I nervous all of a sudden!! it feel like a date, wait? Is this a date, no no this is a business thing yeah...

Good thing I have a nice dress that Ava got me a while ago as a gift for my birthday

( the dress she will wear is on top of the chapter)

Zara: ok I'll see you there, bye Enzo!

Enzyyy: see you there zar

Omgeeeeee did he give me a nickname!! Or was that a typo? I'm not sure I'm I'm gonna pretend it's a nickname!!!

Now I have to get through this rain, think happy thoughts Zara you can do it, just think about your date, wait it's not a date I need to stop thinking like that he doesn't like someone like me I mean he's perfect he can have any girl he would want why would he want me

I'll just talk to Ava about it when she comes and sees what she thinks about this "nondate"

꧁notes꧂

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