roommates

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haeun pov

ah the feeling of breathing in such fresh air every single morning as i make my way to the local cafe, located close to my home but had this sense of attraction which made me want to visit 24/7, maybe it was the clean interior or the charming workers. well all the workers but him. im always there to order my go to iced vanilla matcha with extra cold foam on top, and a touch of matcha powder just how i like it.

served by the same guy, it might seem mundane and monotonous however this person is so endearing, the way he greets every single customer so positively makes my day. but whenever he arrives, it makes me want to spill my drink on him, i guess i have ambivalent feelings about that place, but it always gave me a place to escape my boring location of my house and study peacefully in the corner, i'm a fashion student to be as i'm moving to a new college so just before this semester starts i plan to build a portfolio to present my skills, requiring loads of cafe trips to boost my motivation often accompanied by my krnb playlist and the scent of coffee beans.

but those hours pass by so fast and before i know it i'm at home staring ever so blankly at the ceiling just reminiscing over the past, scrolling through my phone couldnt help the pain that would pierce my heart even thinking about it, all i could do was let tears roll down my face. "aish hyunjun.." i groaned aloud at the mf who ruined my love life, we were friends. but not anymore, we were friends with benefits, but not the glamorous way, it was a toxic and humiliating relationship, the way he had used me whenever he pleased, oh how i regret my actions.

then

after we finished yet again i looked up to his beautiful face, "hyunjun" i called softly, "what" he said harshly, "i've fallen for you" fuck, i mentally curse to myself the biggest if not most obvious rule of being friends with benefits. don't fall in love. even worse when he'd reply with "pft stupid bitch" he laughs, placing his hand under my chin, "you're just a pretty body nothing more", unfortunately we weren't friends necessarily i was just the person he'd first call whenever he needed me.

that's when i realised i made the biggest mistake of falling in love with such a stupid person, how i was being used. and with that i left his house, crying for hours regretting each single second with him, it wasn't love i had felt no more but resent that he put me through. there was something still about his hard exterior that never changed, behind that face he was still cold and mean, i was an idiot for not noticing quick enough. my heart broken.

now

still a few years later i struggle to recover from such a depressing love story, so much so that i changed my appearance from head to toe. dying my hair to a slight golden brown with blonde highlights and long face-framing curtain bangs to perfectly suit my face. i started learning the magic of makeup and made sure to excentuate my features adding slightly smudged eyeliner and eyelashes, topped off with a clear lipgloss as my everyday look. even my wardrobe upgraded with many various looks that complemented me.

all of that to prove him im more than just a 'pretty body'. and thankfully he hasn't recognized me yet because i'm just so stunning, if he did i'd crumble once again if he tried to get close to me. besides guys, or him, moving to a new college seemed more difficult than i thought. having to move to a new place because i can't study at my childhood home, my room was simply way too small to fit all the textiles mess.

again on my phone for the hundredth time, i scrolled through some college accomodations, my finger stopped at this one post, the description read 'one bedroom with an en suite, one kitchen and living room' "this is it!" i said to myself in excitement finding the most suitable place to stay, i quickly applied for the place and waited for a responce. not even an hour later the owner quickly rang me, "hello is this lee haeun?" the lady asked "yes it is" i answered hesistantly, "congrats! you're application went through you can start moving in whenever," she replied as she earned multiple screams from the other side of the line "thank you!" i screamed in joy, praying my voice didn't make her ears bleed.

"YA! LEE HAEUN! SHUT UP" a voice from behind the wall screamed louder than me, that's him. my brother, lee hyunjae or jaehyun i love to call him, thankfully i'll be able to leave his annoying ass soon.  i ran into his room flopping onto the bed, "guess who's moving out~" i bragged as he glanced at me in jealously, "let me come too" he cooed hanging onto my arm "nope it says here, one bedroom" i made clear and emphasized the 'one'. jaehyun was older by one year yet his behavior was similar to a child, typical jaehyun. "ok fine you can visit" i say rolling my eyes, as he gladly helped me pack my things. time for a new chapter in my life, and hopefully a better love life.