Romantic Helplessness

ruining everything

My lips slow around her neck

And her hands travel down my spine;

She's sprawled on her bed and mentally I'm sprawled in his.

She whispers "I love you",

I tell her that I only love her when we're together.

My teeth bare against her neck

And she quirks her brow,

Calling my bullshit.

"What's the first name that comes to your mind?"

And his name slips past my lips,

My teeth sink into her skin and draw blood.

"You're so fucking predictable."

She says I move on far too slow,

She says I'm still plagued by people who haven't been here

For a whole decade.

She says she's different to me

And leaves.

Her name tastes bitter on my tongue

And I've always loved ruining everything that was good.

I stop saying her name,

My brain stops clinging to her

And she screams her name like its fireworks inside her vocal cords.

She has always said she loved New Years.