My Sweetheart

𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑇ℎ𝑟𝑒𝑒

**MONDAY**

"Alex...I need to tell you something" I say shyly. God, I can't believe I'm really about to do this. He looks at me with a strange look on his face. Should I back out?

"Yes, Lilly?" He says. God that face. I could stare into his eyes for hours. My palms are so sweaty, ew. 

"I...I like you. I have since 8th grade." I tell him. His slight smile fades into a small frown. I can see it in his eyes that I'm not going to like what he says. I feel the need to cry so bad. This was such a bad idea. 

"I'm so sorry. I don't feel the same way. Friends still?" He asks. My vision gets blurry. It's my stupid tears. I can't believe I'm actually crying over this. Shouldn't I have known? How can I actually be so stupid? 

"Oh...yeah." I respond in a quiet voice. That's when I start to actually cry. Tears stroll down my cheeks as I give him a small reassuring smile. He pulls me into his chest and holds me tight. I hate myself. It's going to be so awkward now. Nothing will be the same. 

"I'm sorry." He whispers. "I still love you." But not the way I do. It makes me cry even more hearing those words come out of his mouth. 

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

"AH" I shout as my alarm scares me awake. My pillow is wet? Oh my god. I cried in my sleep. Why does this hurt so much? It was just a dream. Get over yourself, Lilly. 

*DING*

New Text Message from: dumbass<3

lilly!! good morning! it's the first day back to school and i know you're dreading it. anyways i'm gonna come over in like 20 minutes

I smile and forget all about that stupid dream I had. I respond. 

okay! you can just come in but shout my name when you're here so i dont think you're someone to kill me lol

I start smiling and blushing like an absolute idiot. Like a little kid when their mom says yes to them getting some sort of candy they love. I go downstairs and see my parents have already left for work. I unlock my front door then run back up the stairs and into my bathroom. 

Grabbing my toothbrush and whatnot I do my normal bathroom routine. I like the mornings before school, mainly because Alex ALWAYS comes over. Literally, no matter if I'm not even going to school, he'll still show up. Since he is so quick at getting ready, he stays with me while I get ready and then we walk to school together with George. 

I think George is starting to suspect something honestly. He and Alex are always talking and sometimes they look at me. What if Alex knows. What if he doesn't like me. He probably doesn't. I shouldn't like Alex anyways, I'm trying to deny my feelings. He is my best friend. It could honestly ruin everything we have. 

I finish up in the bathroom and get clothes out of my drawer. Picking out some black ripped skinny jeans and Alex's gray shirt that he keeps leaving. I get it all on and that's when I hear my front door open. 

"LILLY" Alex shouts. Smiling, I run down my stairs and see him. "Good morning!" He says. 

"Moring! I still have to get ready, so come upstairs" I tell him turning around and heading to my room. 

"But you are ready, you have clothes on" He responds as he follows me to my room. I roll my eyes and laugh. 

"Yeah but I need to straighten my hair and do my makeup and pick out jewelry" I explain. We get into my room and I go into the bathroom and turn my straightener on. 

"I mean you don't NEED to do all of that stuff but ok" He says following me into the bathroom and sits on the toilet. "Hey...is that my shirt?" He asks. I laugh a little. 

"Yes, you keep leaving it here so I just wear it sometimes" I respond. He looks at me and laughs. I pick up the straightener and start using it on my hair. 

"Doesn't that hurt?" Alex asks. 

"Not if you don't touch your skin" I tell him. Then we sit in silence for a moment, out of the corner of my eye I just see Alex sitting there. With a small smile, kind of like he is admiring me. I start to get butterflies in my stomach. 

A couple of minutes go by and I finish getting ready. 

"We have to leave now" Alex says bringing me my backpack and my hoodie. I nod, spray perfume, and put deodorant on, then I put my hoodie on. "Wait I got you a late Christmas present," He says. 

"Oh...okay" I saw smiling. He pulls out a smallish box. Wrapped in paw patrol wrapping paper. I start to laugh and that gets him laughing. "Paw patrol? Really?" I say in between laughs. 

"Just open it!" He says, we calm down and I unwrap it. 

"Airpods?!" I squeal. I immediately give him a hug. He laughs and hugs me back. 

"Yes, I remembered you lost yours on the boat during the summer and couldn't afford new ones." He tells me. I smack his shoulder lightly. He laughs. 

"Well thank you, I love them" I tell him. He smiles at me. 

"Of course. We could open them now but we need to go" He says. I realize he's right. I put them on my nightstand and we head downstairs. Making sure we both have our bags and everything else, we head out. 

"There you guys are" I hear George say. 

"Yeah yeah, here we are," Alex says. 

**AT SCHOOL**

"Okay bye George!" Alex says. 

"Yeah see you guys in 2nd period" George responds. I wave at him and he walks away and joins Clay and Nick. We normally go join them but sometimes Alex and I just stay together. 

"Should we go to class now?" I ask. 

"Yeah lets go" Alex says. We then talk about random things on our way to 1st period. 

A/n: im dragging it out yes i know