Chances (COMPLETED)

Chapter forty five

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ALEXANDRA

"She loves you, she still is. It's game over for me, huh."

"Ali..."

"Tss. Don't give me that pity look crap. Sabi ko naman sa 'yo it's Chan's decision, not ours. Just don't mess up this time. Dahil hindi na ko magpaparaya."

"Tss. As if you have a chance." nilapitan ko si Ali and for the first time after a long time, I hugged her. And she hugged me back.

"Please take care of her and the kids, Ate."

"I will. Take care of yourself too, Ali. And call me, please."

I send her off to the airport. Wala siyang sinabihan na aalis siya kundi ako. Nagulat pa ako ng tawagan niya ako at kinausap. I admire Ali's courage to clear things up with me. Lalo na ang pag papaubaya niya kay Chan sa akin. Tho, I have all the right to Chan, iba pa rin na ngayon hindi mahahati ang atensyon niya between me and Ali. I was just thinking what might be the kids reaction.

"Good morning." I kiss Chan's neck when I enter our room. She's still sleeping.

"Umalis ka?" she sleepily look at me.

"May inayos lang." tiningnan niya lang ako at hindi na nagtanong pa. I sighed and hugged her at the back. Isa iyon sa malaking ipinagbago ni Chan.

She is not asking questions anymore, unlike before. And it's bugging me. Ayoko ng ganoon siya na para bang wala na siyang pakialam sa akin o sa mga ginagawa ko. Natatakot ako na masanay siyang ganoon at mawala na hindi lang ang paki niya, kundi pati ang pagmamahal niya.

"I send Ali to the airport." napalingon siya agad sa sinabi ko.

"Why?"

"She need to go back to US---"

"Sabi niya dito na siya nakabase?"

Napakunot noo ako sa sinabi niya. Nagseselos dahil pati iyon alam niya. "Sinabi niya sa'yo?"

Tumango siya saka babangon sana pero pinigilan ko. "I need to talk to her."

"Bakit?"

"Anong bakit?"

I raked my her frustratedly. Naiinis pero kailangan kong kumalma. "You want her here instead of me? Tell me, I want to know Chan. M-mahal mo na ba siya?"

"Tss. Ano na naman ba 'to?"

"Just answer me, please. I'm hurting, babe."

Chan turn around and hold my waist. "Nagseselos ka?"

Really? Hindi ba halata?

"Should I be?"

She sighed and hold my face. "No. Alam ko hindi tayo masyadong nagkakaintindihan. Ali is a family--"

"At ako hindi? Bakit siya naiintindihan mo pero ako, parang hindi." punong ng sakit na sumbat ko.

"Alex it's been five years. Ang daming nangyari--"

"At hindi ko iyon ginusto. Bakit ang rason ni Ali tanggap mo, pero pag ako, parang kwestyunable? That's why I want to know. Do you love Ali now more than me? Para-- para hindi ako umasa."

"Would I let you kiss and make love to me if I didn't feel the same? Tell me Alex, papayagan ba kitang tumira dito kasama namin kung hindi kita mahal? If my love for you has change, would you be here with me now? Oo, madalas naninibago ako. I'm still adjusting and so are you. Kahit hindi mo sabihin, nararamdaman ko. Maraming nagbago. At isa na roon si Ali. She became a part of us. Of the kids. Akala mo ba hindi apektado ang kambal, lalo na si Ash. Sa mga pagbabago sa buhay namin, natin. I am not doing this dahil may gusto ako sa kanya. K-kung siya na ang mahal ko, wala ka dito ngayon Alex. You know--- you know me when I love someone."