"Jessica,
😭😭😭
I thought..."
My mouth is trembling...
I don't know if I was audible. Did I really speak a while ago?
I am looking at my hands now.
I'm shaking, I feel cold.
She's here. That I am sure.
She is now taking her things in front of the vanity mirror.
I feel like I'm about to explode.
Out of all the things I wanted to say,
In spite of the truth that she was about to leave,
I couldn't speak.
Narinig ko na sinarado na niya yung luggage niya.
Hahawakan na sana niya yung handle nun pero kinuha ko yung kamay niya.
I kissed it.
Amoy dishwashing liquid.
Typical smell of a woman's hand.
A woman who is a wife material.
My wife...
But she is about to leave me.
Lumuhod ako sa harap niya. Hawak ko pa rin ang kamay niya.
"Sorry!
Sorry B!
Don't leave me!
Mamamatay ako Jessica!
Sorry na please?!"
I wailed.
Umiyak ako ng umiyak.
Niyakap ko ang legs niya.
Mamamatay ako pag iniwan niya ko!
I used her hands to slap myself.
The first one left my ear ringing. But I don't mind.
Nothing beats the pain that I feel inside.
I'm about to slap myself for the second time but she restrained me.
"Nakipagbreak ka na diba? Kukunin ko lang yung mga gamit ko."
I held her legs tighter.
I am holding it tight as if my life depends on it.
"Sorry na B!
Don't do this to me please?!
Magusap tayo!"
She let go of my hand.
She sat on the bed.
She is crying too.
I don't know how my cry sounds.
But she is crying pitifully.
I tried to touch her but she shove my hand away.
