🍁BITTERSWEET

CHAPTER 82

"That's wonderful" I say standing up and holding his hands. I would be thrilled if Vally were to propose.

"That's thrash. Utmost thrash" he says moving his hands from mines. It seems like it's not just about him proposing. Vally hates the idea of marriage. If I were to ask him now about our future he'd go mad.

"So what's thrash here. Your sister being happy and starting a family or the proposal?" I ask him. His hate is resulting to him not allowing for his sister to live her life. Everyone deserves happiness no matter the situation.

"You see. You Fucking taking they side. That's what you always do....why can't she find herself a doctor or anything else just not that mechanic" he says. He starts pacing up and down again.

"So it's about bringing in money" I say sitting down. He wants his sister to marry someone with money just so that he can get a share.

"Look, I don't care about the money, I just need someone who will look after her and care for her something which I failed to do" he says looking out the window. So the real reason is for someone who will play the role he failed to play.

"And that's not bad at all. You just need to allow her some happiness. Put your feelings aside and agree with her for once" I say running my fingers through my hair. This is making me become more and more frustrating.

"So it's about you right. The fact that you think I'll never propose to you" he shouts at me. I stand up and look at him with my arms crossed. Of course it's about me.

"I just don't understand you sometimes. You always blame every thing on me and yeah, Vally why won't you propose. This boyfriend and girlfriend won't take us anywhere. We'll keep on hurting each other and stuff" I say and mean it. No boyfriend and girlfriend relationship has ever lasted.

I want to also have my own family. I am a grown woman. I won't be fooled around for no reason. If he really loves me he should prove it and that's spending the rest of my life with me. And that's exactly what his sister is going through.

"I can't okay. Marriage was never apart of the plan. I just don't know how to manage responsibility. I watched my family break up in my face and there was nothing I could do. If Lorraine's marriage does break up I will suffer again and it will be worse if ours break..try and understand Brittney" he says. His getting angry as I can see his face turn pink.

I know it's hard for him to commit into a relationship due to the way his family fell apart while he watched. But that does not give him reason to not allow others or himself to commit into a relationship.

"Vally, you going to hurt others and yourself. Life's to short for you to not take the risk of responsibility..face your fears by opening up for yourself and for others" I say calmly. I go to him and put my hands on his chest. His heart is beating very fast in anger.

"I--- I need some air" he says walking pass me and going out. I stand there and wipe the tears from my eyes. 

I never did realise I was crying. I go to the kitchen and make supper which goes silently as Damien claims to be so tired that he can't speak.  After supper I tuck Damien in bed and leave the room when his asleep.

Vally hasn't come back yet and it's not normal. He doesn't stay out very late unless His working which his not. I've tried calling him but his phone just rings.

I'm sitting on the couch watching movies while waiting for him to come back. I am just so worried about him that its hard to close my eyes and sleep. It has been hours and my eyes are getting heavy of sleep.

My eyes give in and I close them but a loud bang scares me awake. I look around but find no one. It could be the tv cause the action movie is still playing. I get up and go to the window as there's lights coming from outside.