2022 Letters for the Moon

Holding you not

Recently, may dumaan sa YouTube recommendations ko na isang playlist dedicated to a character sa genshin with their voice overs. And nagulat nalang ako sa sarili ko na somewhat sad while listening. (I even made a playlist just for that, pfft, playlist sa loob ng playlist)

So basically, makikinig ka ng songs na the maker thinks na fitted for that certain character, then may voice lines ng character mismo. So basically during pandemic, nahanap ko ang Genshin. Then sabihin na nating I really like Albedo and Ganyu. Kayo na magsearch hihu. And while am listening sa playlist, pumasok sa isip ko na love really takes time. That love takes patience and bravery.

I once loved a boy. Yeah, a boy. Am bi btw.

And fresh pa na fresh 'yung memory ko nung umamin ako sa kanya. But sadly, rejected ako mga pri. Or friendzoned parang ganon. Umamin kasi ako sa bestfriend ko since bata ako. But looking back to that memory, hindi naman na masakit since nakamove on naman na me.

But I want to share this to you to tell you that hindi lagi happy ending kapag umamin ka sa isang tao. Holding you not. Kaya ganyan ang title. I can't hold someone's hand kasi fiction lang siya. And I can't hold the hand of the boy I once loved kasi hindi naman siya sa akin.

Love really takes bravery. It also takes patience. I really loved that boy. I somehow found another reason to wake up everyday. Bigla nalang ngingiti out of nowhere. Kapag naiisip na magkasama kayo, kikiligin. Kapag kausap mo siya, you feel at peace.

Gusto ko lang iparating sa inyo na seryosohin niyo ang pagmamahal. Love is a fragile thing. But it can also be hard as a rock.

Love can bring peace, but it can also be a reason for your heartbreak. Tamang pagmamahal, maling tao. :<