Don't Want to Want You (lawlight)

Light Yagami/L Lawliet

(673 words)

I looked at my watch in anticipation. It was almost 7:30 PM, and I was waiting in the booth seat that I saw Ryuzaki at last night. Only a minute or two passed before I heard the door chimes ring. I looked over and saw him standing there, hands in his blue jeans, looking me in my eyes. My face turned red before I signaled him to sit by me.

He took his seat and ordered a slice of strawberry shortcake, and so did I, or at least I tried to.
"Light, do you want to.. share one with me?" He asked, looking more sincere than ever. I hesitated, feeling lovestruck, and then agreed to him.
"Why did you want to meet me again?" I asked, wondering if there was a specific reason.
"No reason is necessary; I just wanted to see you again. I mean, you're the prettiest person I've ever seen," he said with complete ease, which I envied yet adored. "You're all red.. are you sick?" He commented, before letting out a small giggle. My face turned an even darker shade of red, and I couldn't help but feel embarrassed at my flustered expression.

"No.. I'm not sick," I spat out, sounding like a grumpy kid. He displayed a smirk to me.
"Mm, tell me about yourself, Light Yagami." His way of speech and how he said my full name sparked something inside of me in a way that I've never felt before.
"Well.. I'm about to graduate high school with the highest honors.. I play tennis and squash.. um. Oh! I'm actually very interested in learning about-."
"Me?" He interrupted, catching me off guard. Oh my god.. he's just so.. "Dreamy?" He commented, while grinning. My eyes widened and my whole face tinted a dark ruby.
"Wh-what I was going to say is that I want to pursue criminal psychology," I finished, smiling proudly.
"Ooh, that's interesting. Do you have a teacher or a program you're going to follow?"
"Oh.. no not yet, I'm still looking around," I admitted, feeling ashamed though I shouldn't have.

I left my gaze on Ryuzaki, and it looked like gears were turning in his brain.
"I.. could be your teacher," he said, slowly and cautiously. My mood lit up mentally and visually, as I quickly nodded my head in anticipation.
"You know about criminal physiology?" I questioned, enthusiastically.
"I can't um.. tell you much, it will.." and then he stopped speaking.
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I hesitated, as I watched Light's excited face shift into a lost one.
"What do you mean?" He asked. His confused face hit me in my gut and made me feel like I'd gotten his hopes up for nothing.
"Nevermind," I smiled at him, "we can talk about this later."
"O-okay," he replied, still thinking about what I'd said. He hesitated for a minute, and then said something. "You know, you're really.. my type.." he trailed off, causing me to blush a little, which I never do.

I leaned in closer, and pecked his lips. His cheeks tinted pink. His eyes started to flutter  as he forced his lips onto mine once again. My eyes widened in surprise before I began melting into the kiss, feeling starved of this boy, Light Yagami. I deepened the kiss by grabbing the back of his head, slightly controlling his movements. I heard a small groan slip from his mouth which made my stomach flutter.

We broke away for air.
"You're also my type, Light Yagami," I muttered, slightly smirking.
"So, it's true.." he said sorrowfully, which confused me.
"What's true?" I asked, concerned.
"It's true that I've fallen for you, a man, Ryuzaki," TRUTH, he said with a straight face. I couldn't help but laugh at his serious and worried tone.
"Now, is that so bad?" I asked.
"Well, not to us, at least.."

I remembered what I had seen at his house earlier. His parents were abusive and homophobic... that's a bad combination.
"I'm sorry.."

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