Begging Me To Beg For You (vkook)

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    "Tell me what's wrong,"

Jeongguk shook his head, looking down at his phone as Taehyung sat down on the couch beside him. He didn't feel like dissecting his emotions right now, he didn't want to know why he felt like shit, he just wanted to stop feeling like shit.

    "I can't help you if you don't tell me what's wrong, babe," Taehyung says, poking Jeongguk's cheek to make him look at him. "Please?"

    "I don't know, Tae," He says locking his phone. "I can't tell if I'm sad or if my mind is just telling me I'm sad."

   "Why are you sad?"

    "I don't know,"

Taehyung nods. "Did you take your medicine?"

   "You always do that," Jeongguk says rolling his eyes. "My medicine isn't some magical cure that'll make me feel better."

    "I didn't say that~"

   "Every time I tell you I feel bad you ask me~"

   "I know, okay, I'm sorry," Taehyung says quickly. "I won't ask again."

Jeongguk sighs. "I just wish I could help it. I wish I could control my feelings."

    "I know," Taehyung says scooting closer to him and putting his arm around him "Anything I can do to help I'll do. No matter what it is. Even if you just want to cuddle for twenty-four hours straight."

    "Thank you," Jeongguk says, a small smile forming on his face.

   "I love you, okay?" Taehyung asks. "I love you so much."

    "I love you too," Jeongguk says. "I'm probably gonna go to the clinic for a while. I'm supposed to be processing some emails for Jimin."

    "Okay," Taehyung say. "Will Yoongi be there? In case you need anything."

   "He should be," Jeongguk lies, Yoongi barely showed up at the clinic these days, doing most of his work from home. "I'll text you when I'm on the way back."

   "Okay," Taehyung says, his eyes catching the bruise blooming on Jeongguk's arm where his shirt is shifted. "Did you hurt yourself?"

   "Hm?" Jeongguk hums, following Taehyug's eyes to his arm before pulling his sleeve down. "Yeah, I ran into my car door at the gas station."

   "You should really be careful," Taehyung says.

    "Yeah," Jeongguk nods as he grabs his keys. "I'll text you."

Taehyung watches him leave, his brows furrowing after the door is closed behind him. He waits a few minutes before he stands to go to the bedroom. He always tried to trust Jeongguk to take his medication, and most of the time he could. But whenever he saw his mood fluctuating he couldn't help but wonder if he was keeping up with it.

He opens the drawer on Jeongguk's side he finds an empty pill bottle. He looks at the prescription and sees that it is Jeongguk's current prescription. He frowns when he shakes the bottle, twisting the top off and finding a small plastic baggie inside.

    "Oh my god..." He says when he takes the baggie out of the bottle, eyeing the white powder as a number of emotions rush through him. A million questions immediately enter his mind but he can only focus on the fear and worry in his chest.

He knew that Jeongguk had his struggles when it came to having bipolar, but he never once considered this to be a possibility.

He never once thought that Jeongguk would go this far...