ABANDONED AMUSEMENT PARK

nine

09; LOVING YOU FEELS LIKE I'M RUNNING ROUND IN CIRCLES

there are days like these. days on which i feel, loving you and seeing your smile from afar is enough. but then i find myself crying into my pillow on a weeknight and it is not enough. four winters have passed but not once have you left from my mind. yet, in the real world, you keep slipping further away. even in my dreams you keep running away from me, with a laughter that haunts me for days on end. the distance between us feels so loud and so solid and it doesn't make sense. there's a circular staircase between you and me. i keep running and running but it brings me back to where i started. i wish you'd look my way. i wish i could hear your voice again. i wish you didn't feel so out of reach. i wish my wishes didn't sound so desperate, i can't differentiate them from prayers.

(A/N)

thank you if you're here, you're loved<3