I want to be selfish.
I already am, but I wish I could be so selfish that people would say it out loud.
But I have people who care and who would get hurt. (I don't want to hurt them.)
Spare them of the pain (but not myself.)
When it comes to this, it can't actually be about yourself.
And I know both sides,
I've been there, I've felt it. So I know it hurts.
(but)
why does it matter, anyway?
Does it really matter?
why can't I stop my clock a few minutes early?
"Do you know how much people love you? Do you actually think it would fix everything? Do you know how much it would affect the people around you? What about your mom and siblings? What about your friends?
Things get better (they promise)."
I don't want to wait for it to get better.
I don't want to try because with trying and hoping comes losing and tripping.
I meant what I said.
It doesn't matter and I want to be selfish.
