Kuch Pal MaAn Ke Sang

part 2 : Kuch Alag Chai pe Charcha

Kindly note again, this is not for faint hearted. I feel like diamond, often relationships need to go through hard times for one to understand and appreciate their true value in one's life.

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Anu and Anuj, with hands on the railing and tea cups in their hands are looking straight into pitch darkness. Nothing is visible in the darkness but they don't feel any need to see either not even at each other. Its two people, standing side by side and looking in the same direction. Each with different thoughts, battling with an inner turmoil, unaware of what life holds for them in future. True to MaAn nature, there is melancholy in their voice; at same time each is eager to listen to another. However, today seems a day when Anuj has a lot to say and Anu at loss of words, is patiently absorbing his every word. They both are comfortable, the way they are standing, close yet far, place to hear one other yet not able to see the faces due to darkness. Had they been looking at each other or made an eye contact, they knew they won't be able to have this conversation. This conversation, a much needed for them to know where they are headed, if they have a relationship, a future and where it was headed.

Anuj: aaj mujhe Mom-Dad ki bahut yaad aa rahi hai. 26 saal pehle jab gaya tha tab wo meri himmat ban ke mere faisle main mere saath the.

Anu: maa-baap ki zaroorat to insaan ko har umar main padti hai. bhale hi hum kitne hi bade kyu na ho jaye, unki jagah koi nahi le sakta.

Anuj with chirpiness in his voice: Meri mom duniya ki best mom thi, i know har bachcha yahi kehta hai. Pata hai ek baar main school main mid-term main history main fail ho gaya tha. Main rota hua ghar aaya aur apne kamre main chup gaya. Mom mere peeche aayi aur bahut pyaar se mujh se puchne lagi kya hua. Maine, mom ko sab bataya aur unse promise liya ki wo kisi ko nahi batayegi. Warna sab mera mazaak udate ki main ek subject main fail ho gaya.

Phir raat ko papa aye, dinner ke bad wo mere room main aaye. Pehle idhar udhar ke baat kari, phir exams ki aur phir bole ye exams humari life nahi hai. Batane lage kaise bade bade business man school aur college drop outs the. Kaise hume zindagi ki samajh honi chahiye, ye janna chahiye ki hume kya pasand hai. Bahut pyaar se baaton baaton main unhone mere sara daar dur kiya. Phir maine jab unhe bataya ki main fail ho gaya, to wo muskurane lage. Mujhe bahut gussa aaya, pehle mujhe laga wo mera mazaak uda rahe hai.

Phir unhone samjhaya, ki unhe pehle se pata tha, isliye wo muskura rahe the. Phir mujhe Mom pe gussa aaya, unhone mujh se promise kiya tha wo kisi ko nahi batanyegi. Main zor zor se chilane laga, Mom daur ke mere room aayi, to main pucha, aap mera promise kaise tod sakti hai. Pata hai Mom ne kya bola, unhone kaha Papa aur wo alag nahi hai, pati-patni ka rishta hi aisa hota hai. Isliye jab unhone promise kiya ki kisi ko nahi, to us main Papa nahi aate. Aaj bhi jab Mom-Dad ke bare main sochta hu, unka ek dusre ke liye pyaar aur respect, dil bhar aata hai. Main jo hu, jaisa hu, sab unke sanskaar hai.

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Anuj: Ab GK hi mere sab kuch hai, tum kitni lucky ho jab chaho mil sakti ho.

Anu: haan, main to kal hi milne gayi thi

Anuj: kya kal, mujhe to laga tha tum shah house gayi thi.

Anu: haan to, wahi to gayi thi

Anuj: Sorry, wo mujhe laga tum Maa, matlab tumhari maa aur bhavesh ki baat kar rahi thi.

Anu: Unse mile to mujhe mahine ho gaye, kabhi kabhi phone par baat kar leti hu

Anuj: Haan, tumne bola tha, tum din ko lunch time pe gayi thi Baa-Bapuji se milne, us waqt ghar pe koi aur nahi tha. Bura na mano to ek baat puchu, kahi tumhare aur Maa ya Bhavesh ke beech koi problem hai kya

Anu: Nahi, aisa kuch nahi hai. Shaadi ke bad Baa aur Mr Shah ko mera waha jana pasand nahi tha. Aur ek tarah se shaadi ke bad, shah house hi mera ghar tha, to bas wahi ki ho kar reh gayi main.

Anuj: to Shaadi ke bad, ghar badla to maa, bhavesh se doori aa gayi. Phir divorce ke bad, shah house chodne ke bad, ab bhi us ghar se doori kyu nahi bani.

Maa-beti ka ek rishta us ghar se bhi hai, aur ek rishta is ghar se bhi hai. Phir aisa kya hai, ki ghar se doori hai, aur dusra ghar chod ke bhi chut nahi raha.

(Note: here Anuj means Maa-Anu and Anu-Pakhi when he says maa-beti, he is not talking about Baa.)

Anu chose to remain silent this time. She knew Anuj was not looking for answer here. He has very subtly told her that Baa-Bapuji are not her parents. And her only relation to Shah house was her 3 kids. Somewhere he had questioned her prioritizing them over her mother. She didn't want to explain to Anuj the importance Baa-Bapuji hold in her life, not today at least.

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Anu: Anuj aap shayad nahi jante par main janti hu. Mr Shah ne sirf Kavya se pyaar kiya hai aur aaj bhi karte hai. Haan wo thode naraaz hai us se aajkal par aaj bhi wo us se pyaar karte hai. Sach to ye hai ki wo ghatiya insaan nahi hai, wo ek bahut achche bete aur achche pita hai. Aaj mera unse sirf ek rishta hai, wo mere liye sirf mere bacho ke pita hai, aur kuch nahi.

Anuj: Vanraj ko leke tumhari soch main bahut achchi tarah janta hu. Kal bhi tum yahi kehti aayi ho, aur aaj bhi wahi baat dohra rahi ho.

Maine kab kaha ki Vanraj tumse pyaar karta hai, haan shayad tum uski aadat ho, ek zaroorat ho, jo wo chod nahi paya.

Sach kahu to Vanraj achcha hai ya bura mujhe us se kuch farak hi nahi padta. Aur na hi main uss ke bare main soch raha hu, ya kabhi sochta.

Haan par main tumhare bare main sochta hu, tumhe janta hu. Main ye janta hu ki wo achcha ya bura jaisa bhi hai, par tum se aaj bhi juda hai.

Aur jo rishta main tum se jodna chahta hu, us mein main tumhe kisi se baat nahi sakta.

Har rishte ke mayne, maryda alag hoti hai, jaise maa, baap, bachche, bhai, behan. In sab rishto ko hum baat sakte hai; tumhare 3 bachche hai, kanhaji ki do maa thi, pakhi ke do bhai hai.

Par Radha to sirf ek hi hoti hai na. main tumse, waisa hi jeevansathi ka rishta jodna chahta hu. aur is rishte main batwara, ya koi milawat nahi ho sakti.

Meri nazar main Vanraj hamesha ek ghatiya insaan rahega, jisne tumhe dard diya ho, main us pe vishwas nahi kar sakta. Par ye mera nazariya hai, sirf mera. Aur maine aaj tak kabhi apni soch tum par haawi nahi hone di, to aaj kaise karunaga. Tumhari soch, tumhara faisla, sirf tumhara hai. To agar tumhare liye wo insaan sahi to hai.

Aur aisa nahi hai, ki main chahta hu Vanraj bura bane. Agar wo ek achcha insaan banega to mujhe sach main khushi hogi. Isliye nahi kyu ki main mahaan hu. balki isliye kyu ki main insaan hu. Agar aise hua to tumhari chinta kam hogi, apne bachcho ke leke, baa-bapuji ke liye. Tum apna zyada waqt apne sapne ko dogi, shayad mujhe bhi thoda zyada waqt dogi. Aur wahi sahi hai, aakhir wo ghar Vanraj ka hai, to sambhalna bhi use chahiye. Tum wo ghar chod ke bhi aaj tak use sambhal rahi ho, ye galat hai. Tumhare saath galat hai, tum azaad ho ke bhi azaad nahi ho. Tumhare pair ki badeya aaj bhi wahi hai, jo bhumi pujan ke din thi.