The Hardest Sorry

Chapter 1

Its a very fine and sunny day, the wind is just so cool namapapapikit ka nalang at makakatulog. The sound of the water splashing back and forth is so calming.

THis day is considered to be the last day of me being free, free from doing the things that I love. I'm gonna pursue med school as one of my dream, to be a doctor and to help other people.
Nagliliwaliw lng ako dahil alam kung kapag sumabak na sa pag aaral at pagrereview and oras mong libre sakto nalang para itulog at magpahinga.

My parents choose to spend the time here in a villa na pagmamay-ari ng amiga ni mama na kumpare din ni papa ang kanyang asawa. The ambience is  fit for unwinding lalo na sa ganda ng buhangin at kulay ng tubig. Parang boracay na kung tutuosin pero hindi kasing lapad ng boracay ang villa.

"Kzeah! anak kakain na!" dinig kung pagtawag sakin ni mama, mataas na ang sikat ng araw mukhang tanghalian na nga dahil wala na ang ibang nagsuswimming kanina.

Sinuot ko lng ang robe ko at dumiretso sa cottage namin, marami nang tao  sa loob at ang iba ay hindi ko kilala kaya medyo nakayuko akong pumasok. May mga babae doon nakabikini din at ang tatangkad nila. Nginingitian ako ng iilang mga tao na nadadaanan ko.

Tumabi ako kay mama at isinuksok ang sarili sa sulok na mahaharangan ako ni mama dahil ang tingin ng mga tao sakin ay para bang diwataakong nahiwagaan silang makita.

"Oh amiga, Kzeah my daughter, only daughter." ngumiti ako sa babaeng nasa harap ko, nakangiti din siya saakin.

"She's beautiful, she can be a model if she wanted to. Height doesn't matter as long the statistics is on the criteria." she ruffle my hair and hug me like we know each other for a long time.

"And I know Kimly will agree to that, but Greg where's your son?" napamaang ako sa kung sino si Kimly? at anak niya na ano?

I give my mother a questioning look pero di niya ata nakuha ang ibig kung iparating sa kanya dahil nginitian niya lng ako. The party started, I didn't expect that there is a party kasi ang tanging alam ko lng ay bibbisita lng kmi dito dahil kakabukas lng nito at I want to calm myslef from stress and pressure.

All the people inside the cottage are relatives of the owner which is Tita Josefa and tito Greg. Her nieces and nephews are all in modeling kaya gusto niya din akong magmodeling but I wanted to help sick people than flaunting my body and impressing others.

Suddenly a man just arrive he's tall as well. Hindi maipagkakaila na anak siya ni tito Greg dahil sa resemblance ng mukha niya. Just the eyes are different, they spark like how tita Josefa's eyes sparkle in happiness while talking to me and to other people.

He kiss tita in tthe cheeks and wave at veryody inside the cottage. He look at us nang bumulong si tita sa kanya.
"Kim, these are our friends Mr. and Mrs. Deloviar. Their only daughter Kzeah " I smile a bit when he look at me and I continue eating dahil wala akong interes makipag-usap sa kanya.

"You both look good together." my mother commented, ramdam ko ang pagbalakid ng kanin sa lalamunan ko sasinabi ng nana y ko na hindi manlang tinitimbang ang sasabihin.

"Ma" saway ko sa kanya, pero humalakhak lamang sila ni tita na pinaupo na ang anak sa mismong tabi ko. I don't feel gross but its just ayaw ko.

My mom is a shipper, tho I don't like them I just accepted what she wanted me to do dahil wala naman akong magagawa. Obey or Lose my dream, always told me that. Anyways the crab taste good.

"Hi, you must be Kzeah?" napalingon ako sa babaeng umupo sa tabi ko habang nakaupo ako sa dalampasigan at nakatingin sa mga lalakeng nagtatampisaw sa dagat.

Ngumiti ako sa kanya at tumango.

"I'm Shaira, tama nga si Tita Ruby na maganda ka and you know I can help you enter our agency if you want to be a model...."

"I want to be a doctor, a surgeon perhaps"humarap ako sa kanya at ngumiti ng huminto siya at nakaawang ang bibig na tumingin sa aking mga mata.

She didn't say a word after that she just settle beside me and watch the guys playing.

"Maybe meant to be nga kayo, he didn't want to be model he want to pursue med school, he wanted to wear a lab coat and hold a stethoscope rather than wearing a brief or suit holding her waistband or tie."

"And I know you too, no offense but I admire you" natuliro ako sa mga sinasabi niya pero napangiti na lamang ako. Hindi ko man kilala kung sino ang kinukwento niya pero I smile.

Papalubog na ang arawng maisipan kung lumangoy na rin sa dagat dahil medyo maligamgam na ang tubig, they say that warm water can help ease stress. I believe that back in my pre med , t also helps me in having a good sleep.

Iniwan ko lng sa dalampasigan ang suot ko kaninang roba at dahan dahang inilublob ang sarili sa tubig. I feel surreal, the moment I make my body floats in the water.  Tanging alon at huni ng mga tao lamang ang naririnig ko, kung hindi lng llubog ang katawan ko kapag nakatulog ako eh talagang matutulog ako.

"You better get a floating bed rather than comfortable floating and forget that you're in the water." a baritone voice said, He's just near me.

Nakapikit ako kaya di ko alam kung asan siya but I don't mind.
"Are you that stress?" he ask.

"hmm yeah, are you?" I ask.

"Yes, but a woman warming my bed ease my stress..." I'm about to say something when I realize what he had said that causes me to lose control at malala pa ay pinulikat ako kaya hindi mahirap na lumubog ako.

Pilit ko mang lumangoy pataas pero hindi ko maigalaw ang kanang paa ko. But I just felt broad arms wrap around my waist and help me to go up.

"Holy cow, what was that? sinasabi ko na nga ba eh..." I slap him in the shoulders when we already floated back.

"You nasty talker, dahil s amga piangsasabi mong kabastusan nabigla ako a pinulikat. But can you help me out? I cannot feel me right foot." I whined, mabilis naman niya akong tinulungan makabalik sa pampang at don minasahe ang paa ko.

Effecctive ang ginawa niyang pagmasahe dahil mabilis na mawala an pulikat naramdaman ko ang paa ko.

My mother rushing to the shore shouting something and nadatnan kaming naghihilotan ng paa ang siyang nakapahinto sa kanya.

"What happened? don't tell me nalunod ka? you took swimming lessons back when you were a kid, kzeah" she worriedly said and wrap the robe around my body.

"Mom, I'm fine. Pinulikat lng ako and Kim help me." I explained, she just nodded and help me to go back in my cabin para makapagalit.

After I have change bumalik kami sa cottage at doon naghintay ng hapunan at makinig sa mga usapan nila tungkol sa business at modeling careerng mga pamangkin nila tita Josefa.
Nakakabored pero kailangan kung makisama.

"Good evening everbody, I, we rather wanted to announce this." My mother hold my wrist and we walk to where the two couples are standing.

"My son Kimly and Ruby's daughter, Kzeah."

"Engagement proposal"