The Hardest Sorry

Chapter 3

-THEN LET'S TRY-

"Nakapag enroll ka na ba iha sa napili mong med school?" I turn my gaze to Kimly's mother, I wipe my lips before smiling at her.

My father is just in front of me, waiting for my answer. But my decision is final, I know he will be very against to this. But he is more important than getting another degree, I don't want to be selfish and ignorant just this time.

I ignore my mother's gaze and smile at papa.

"I won't enroll myself in med school tita." diretsa kung sagot, napahinto silang lahat dahil sa sinabi ko. Papa is looking intently at me, nakayuko lng si mama.

Kinausap niya ako na wag munang ipaalam kay papa na hindi ako mag eenroll but I have alibis para hindi magtaka si papa sa ginawa kung desisyon.

"I will earn hours in my finished degree muna tita. I wanted to explore more before entering the wonderful doors of med school." I smiled at her and look at papa na nakangiti na ngayon. The smile that looks different from the smile he used to show.

"Good Morning everybody, I'm sorry for being late." humahangos na lumapit si Kimly sa mesa at bineso ang lahat kabilang na ako. And one thing for sure. I smell woman's perfume in him.

"Did you had a good time having fun? huh?" I whisper when he settled beside me. I doubt that he didn't hear what I said kasi malapit na yun sa taenga niya pero hindi manlang lumingon. I saw my parents smiling at us, same with his parents. Ngiting aso ang ipinakita ko sa kanila kahit sa kaloob looban gusto ko nang sumimangot. If they only know that their future in law is a effing womanizer, ipagkakatiwala pa kaya nila ako?

"About the engagement" tita wipe her lip before continuing. "We will have it announce tomorrow in the hotel owned by Ruby and Kristoni." she smile at me and his child. Pwedeng magmura.

I guess everything is settled and their decision is final. Hindi na mababali pa at hindi na maaring mabago pa. I smile at the thought that I feel betrayed, I smile not because of happiness but because of disappointment. Hindi manlang ako nakapag desisyon para sa sarili ko, I'm in a right age to decide what choices should I choose and decisions I should make. But here I am obeying what my parents want me to do.

This isn't an act of repaying my debts but they explained that this is for my own sake. I have a sick father and a concerned mother, saan ko ilulugar ang sarili ko?

"Looks like you're in a deep thoughts, hmm? Hindi ka manlang aalma?" nakaupo na kami sa tabing dagat, sinusulit ko ang mga oras ko dito na dahil bukas babalik na kami sa siyudad. Babalik sa siyudad na iba na ang buhay na maari kung tatahakin.

"I wanted to protest and be against with their decision, but I don't want to be a disappointment even I feel betrayed. Why don't you?" I ask him, nakatingin lng siya sa akin na para bang binabasa ako pero hindi ako nagpapakita ni anong emosyon dahil ayaw kung mapagtawanan sa pagiging mahina ko.

Hindi siya nakasagot pero umiling lamang at bumuntong hininga.

"You know how much I love my girlfriend." he sigh and look away. I examine his facial, he's an open book, the love in his eyes is very visible. Pagkasabi niya palang kung ano niya kamahal ang kasintahan niya tila mga bituin sa langit kung numingning ang kanyang mga mata.

"Then why?" I ask again, hoping to get an answer.

"Its just, I need to choose... I don't know."

"What do you mean by you don't know?" I ask him, he look at my eyes and smile.

"I don't have any choice, Kzeah. If I wanted to keep my girl safe then I should follow my parents." he suddenly wipe his eyes and bite his lower lip.

"I guess you're under the spell, what does it feel to be inlove? Hindi ko pa kasi nararanasang magmahal." I said and played with the sand. I didn't get any reply from him, so I decided to keep silent as well.