The words I wish I would've told you.

to m.d.s.k. pt. 2

i hope

i hope you don't forget
all the shit you did to me

i hope you don't forget
how you will always be my first kiss
you put your dirty lips on mine
and i hated it.

i hope you feel guilty
thinking about how you took
every piece of me away

i hope you know
i have permanent scars
not "scars" as in the metaphor,
but real scars. scars that won't
go away. they'll stay maybe for
a year. i could've protected myself
from your toxicity.

i should've stopped myself while i had the chance.

i hate myself for loving you.
not a day goes by that i don't regret letting myself
be vulnerable towards you.

i will always hate
how i chose someone who
couldn't care less if i were
to die

you probably wouldn't have felt bad
if i did kill myself.

you knew i felt horrible
because of you
and all you did was
tell another girl
"i love you."