Love will find a way

PART-VIII

                       

At midnight, shiva was in deep sleep he  felt some movement his eyes open up and he finds raavi in his embrace sleeping but breathing heavily and almost panting. Shiva starts cressing her back to comfort her but her breathing was becoming uneven more.he says patting her cheek,

"Raavi.......... "

Raavi wakes up with a jerk and sits on the bed unable to form words she was perplexed she remembers her dream and puts her hands on her ears and than starts dusting herself throughly and shiva hugs her from behind and whispers in her ears,

"Raavi...... Shant ho jaa..... Bura sapna tha....... Kuch nahi hua hai main hoon yahan tere saath.... "

Raavi calms a bit and turns and forwards her arms in front of him dusting them and says,

"Shiva......... Kaki keh rahi thi mujh par daag lag gya hai....... Yeh dekh maine kitni koshish ki yeh daag mit hi nahi rahe............

Shiva holds her hand and stop her from dusting herself and joins his forehead with her and says,

"Koii daag nahi hai....... Koii bhi daag nahi hai........ Maine kaha ne maa ne jo bola vo galat tha uska koii matlab hi nahi tha........ Please khud ko sazza mat de......... Mera bacha bhut strong hai......... Shant ho jaa please...... "

Tears were on brim of shiva's eyes as he was feeling helpless as he didn't know how to comfort her but he will
Go leaps and bounds to bring her back for the trauma. He settles her head on his lap and caresses her hair patting her cheek in between and raavi snuggles in more and say crying,

"Maine sapna dekha kii kaki ne tujhe kaha ki raavi ko chod de...... "

Raavi continues and says,

"Aur tune mujhse muh fer liya....... Kaki ne kaha ki main tujhe deserve nahi karti aur sab log mujhe aise dekh rahe the jaise maine kuch galat kiya hai....... Aur fir mujhe meri body par har jagah kaalle kaale daag dikh rahe the kaki ne kaha ki raavi ko ghar se bahar nikalo ghar ganda ho raha hai aur tune mujhe nikal.. . . . . .. .. "

Raavi cries badly and shiva gave her time but he kept on moving his hand on her head and after sonetimes raavi stopped crying and shiva says like talking to a kid,

"Main bhi toh dekhu ki kon hai jo meri raavi ko aise bole.... . . . . Main chattan pandya hoon na kisi ko bhi tujhe bolne nahi dunga.. . .. . . Samajh aaya.. . .. . . Aur main nahi chodne wala tujhe.. . . . . Tune na sapna pura nahi dekha main toh tere sapne mein aaya tha taki sab logon ko chup karwa saku.. . . .. . Tera hath pakad ke bahar  nahi nikal raha tha.. . . Tera haath pakad kar tujhe sabhi bure logon se dur  le ja raha tha.. . . . Tu bhi na kuch bhi sochti hain.. . .. .Meri dobi.........."

He than kisses her head and whispers in her ear lovingly,

"Main tera haath kabhi nahi chodunga tu kahegi toh bhi nahi..... Gadhedi..........."

And than he tickles her a little and she smiles at him Shiva engulfs her in a hug and sleeps next to her and raavi says,

"Shiva tu sach mein mujhe nahi chodega na........ "

Shiva snuggles more and says,

"Main to nahi chod raha ikk dum aise hi rahunga........."

A lone tear escapes her eyes and shiva humms her to sleep.

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Morning rays enter the room disturbing Shiva's deep sleep he squinches his eyes and looked around as he felt loss of warmth as last night Raavi slept by hugging him but now he was not able to bask her warmth he moved  a little bit and found Raavi sitting on the bed looking at the marks and moving her fingers on them lightly and lost somewhere. He speaks still lying on the bed,

"Raavi........ "

Raavi doesn't replies as she is lost somewhere and shiva also sits on the bed and says,

"Raavii...... "

Raavi now looks at him her face looked tired and lacks enthusiasm Shiva holds her hands and says,

"Kya soch rahi hai........ "

Raavi nods her in a no and Shiva says,

"Meri raavi itni ghum- shum achi nahi lagti............ "

Raavi looks at him teary eyed and says,

"Main Kaki ko kaise face karungi.......... Aur yeh marks yeh sab chup bhi nahi rahe hai...........kaki dekhingi toh kya bolengi..........."

Shiva cups her face and says,

"Raavi jab tune kuch galat nahi kiya toh tu kio daar rahi hai.......aur inhe kio chupana hai.......... Koii bhi chot ho tym toh lagta hi hai na theek hone mein............vese hi yeh bhi heal ho jayega"

Raavi looks on and shiva takes the ointment on the table and applies the ointment on her wounds gently , Raavi was not leaving his face for even one second. Her eyes well up seeing his care and she starts sniffling Shivs looks at her hug her and she  mumbles still sobbing and drenching his shirt ,

"Shiva........... Itna sab kuch hone ke baad bhi tune mujhe kuch nahi kaha tujhe regret toh nahi hoga na........tune ikk baar bhi question nahi kiya mujhe..........."

Shiva looks at her and nods in no continuously and wipes her tears and says

"Mujhe koii bhi explanation nahi chahiye kio kii main apni raavi ko janta hoon......... Aur yeh regret karne wali baat toh mere dimaag mein bhi nahi aayi toh tu kaise soch sakti hain haan........... "

Shiva gets up from bed and says,

"Chal bahar chalte hain breakfast nahi karna kyaa....... "

Raavi looks at him as she fears of how will suman react and shiva squeezes her hand and both come out of the room. Raavi was holding his forearm and came in aangan. Everyone got delighted seeing Raavi and dhara says,

"Aa raavi aa kar chai pee le....... "

Everyone tried to behave normal and do not get emotional in front of her as shiva has told everyone to not overwhelm her by treating her like a child and not hamper her also by consoling.
Here suman was sitting on one side and she keeps her tea aside and calls raavi. Raavi looks at shiva and than moves forward nervously and sits down on her level and says tears in her eyes,

"Kaki.......... I am sorry......... Mujhe nahi pata ki main............ "

Sunan cutts her and hugs her tightly and cries. Both of them were crying like hell and suman says,

"Mujhe maaf karde meri bachi...... Mujhe maaf karde......... Kitni bakwaas kii maine....... Apni nirchaal aur masoom bachi ka dukh samjh hi nahi payi balki tujhe aur sunane lagi......... Teri halat bhi nahi dekhi maine toh.......... Mujhe maaf karde........."

Raavi holds her folded hand and puts her head on her on them and hot tears made there way out and suman wipes her face with her dupatta and says,

" Bass abb tu aur nahi royegi......... "

Raavi gives her a smile and everyone have there tea together.
Raavi looks at her family and thinks of how luck is she getting these people in her lives who support her and love her in all the conditions.
Her eyes than land on shiva who was already looking at her and he blinks his eyes jn assurance and finally a raavilicious smile appear on both their faces, wide and serene and shiva gives a silent prayer to lord.

"Finally saw you smiling like you always do....... All this time when you were crying  you know.......
Your each tear has pierced my heart and my soul. When you were breathing heavily seeing a nightmare my heartbeat paused.........your uneven breathes were extracting my life out of me..........I hated to see you scratching yourself and thinking yourself not fit for me..........I will better die but do not want you to see like this again........  You are all mine to be loved and the mere thought of losing you breaks me down in pieces...... i fell for your innocence and i can't see your naivety getting exploited........ I can't promise you heavens but i can assure you that i will become your sheild and your this smile which reflects your bu............ I know it will take time ........ Time for you to heal but i will make sure in this time you will always find me hugging you when you breakdown........ Kissing your tears out when you cry......"