The next morning I had nothing on my mind.
It was blank.
I woke up, picked up my phone, which was only on 5%, brushed my hair, put on a sweatshirt and sweatpants, brushed my teeth, and left the house.
I couldn't care less about how I looked, or eating, or basically anything for that matter.
I was amazed on how that one night changed my entire mood.
My entire mental state.
I feel embarrassed, nervous, scared, and sad.
But mostly numb.
Like, I have those emotions, but I can barely feel them.
I got on the bus and didn't look at anyone.
I sat down, and i caught Anthony staring at me.
I wanted to sob right there.
I couldn't even believe i was going to school.
I looked out the window, and before I knew it, I fell asleep.
A few minutes later, I heard a voice saying my name.
"Hey, y/n."
I opened my eyes. It was Kenny.
"We're at school, come on." he said.
"Thanks Kenny." I said.
He grinned.
I walked off the bus, and right by the doors of the school, I saw my best friend Emma.
"Oh my god! Y/n y/n y/n!!! Guess what happened last night." she said.
I didn't even want to think about last night.
"What happened?" I asked, trying to act enthused.
But i failed. I'm exhausted and tired and numb. I wanted to go back to sleep.
"Thomas Gregg asked me out!!" she exclaimed.
"Wow, that's great." I said. "You've had a crush on him for like, ever."
"Okay what's up?" she asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked her, in an annoyed voice.
"You sound, and look, very tired. Are you okay?"
"I'm fine."
"What happened?"
"Nothing happened Emma! I'm fine." I exclaimed.
She sighed and glanced at me before walking away.
Me and Emma used to be best friends. Really close too. But I feel distant from her, like things are changing.
I used to tell her everything. Every single detail about my life, but now I'm weak. I'm secretive. I don't know why.
I walked to my locker, and there was Lia.
"Hey Lia" I said.
"Oh hi! What's up?" she asked.
I decided to ask her about Anthony. If anything, she'll know what's going on with him.
"Do you know Anthony and his friends?"
"Of course I do!"
"What are they like?"
"Well.. most of the time they're nice. Ant is the nicest out of all of them. But they're the typical teen boys." she told me.
"Oh, okay thanks." I said.
