Ive flipped to a new chapter
I see and i know everything is better now,
Better people, happier memories,
I dont have to try as hard to keep my head up.
But now i can actually see everything that is wrong with me,
He makes me happy, my friends are better, i can actually talk when i need to,
But something is always there
Im always trying to self destruct and ruin me.
I cant be pretty enough, happy enough, i cant even realize when im hurting others.
I cant function right unless im in choas
Why cant i be happy?
Why cant i just stop?
Why am i the biggest problem?
- itll never be enough will it.
