Final Love

The farm weekend

warning: mention of self harm, panic attacks 

I woke up by the sound of my phone getting a notification, I got up to see who texted me. it was Lineah, 

- hey I wanted to ask you when you want to leave so ill be ready on time- was her text 

-oh hiii, I would get ready now and pick you up the I leave so maybe in about 30 minutes- I responded 

- okay see you then, my dress is ************** by the way- 

I just read the message and wet to get ready for the day, I got up and waked towards my dresser to pick an outfit and pack the bags for what ill need when we sleep over in the farm, I took out my big  baby blue gym bag and packed in some sheets for the bed 2 pillowcases and 2 blankets, some pijamas, fluffy blanket 2 towels and some soap to go for a shower later    then I threw on some brown sport leggings then I put on a white top, and because I don't want to get cold i added a   a white and brown sweater onto of that. I let my hair down and just tied it in a low bun to keep it out of my face. I took the back and threw it on the living room couch when walking by to get to the bathroom, after I got myself ready I put on my old airforces because I didn't want to wear any of my good shoes. I took the bag, my phone and keys and left my apartment. on my way out I saw my neighbour she spoke to me, ''  Oh his rose, where are you going so early in the morning?'' ''hello Mary, ill just go to help my parent with he farm. I won't be back until probably Sunday evening..'' I answered and smiled at her '' oh okay have fun sweet'', I nodded and continued walking down the hallway, Mary was a old woman living next door. she was always very nice and kind to me when I first moved in and still is. when I finally arrived downstairs I opened my cars back trunk and threw the bag inside then I stat down in the car, and texted my mom 

-hey mom are you guys at the farm already? because im going to co there Now too, im also bringing a friend, I hope thats okay! xx-

then my mom replied -yeah were already here, and its okay that you bring her, can't wait to meet her xxx- 

then I went to text lineah 

- hey im on my way now-

I started the car and drove off to her house, when I finally arrived she was already standing there waiting for me. I waved at her and she entered the car, she was wearing some grey joggers and a white cropped top that had buttons in the middle, -heyy thank you for picking me up- she belted  herself and we drove of, ''thanks for taking me with you by the way, I replay need some time away form my family'' she said '' oh no problem anytime'' the rest of the drive we heald a comfortable silence until we arrived, ''okay so were here now'' I got out of the car and shut the door behind me and waited for her to get out too. we walked to the stall where our horses where, '' want to go for a ride'' I asked her '' a ride? with horses?'' she asked, you could tell that she was exited to go for a ride. ''yes we have two horses they're so adorable'' we finally got to the stall, ''come on'' when we walked in Caydar our black beautiful horse was standing there ready to go out, '' this is ceydar you can take him il take bounty'' lineah opened the door to get to ceydar '' hello cutie'' she said while slowly holding her hand out so ceydar could smell it  ''omg I love him already aaah'' she said while doing little exitement jumps, '' well thats good, ill go the my mother that were here now, and that were going out for a horse ride she she docent get worried, you can already put the saddle and stuff on caydar.'' I said and walked off '' MOM??'' I shouted waiting for her to respond ''here!!'' I followed my moms voice to the garden and saw her sitting in the flower corner piking out the dead pedals, '' I just wanted to let you know that we're here now; we're going to go for a ride with ceydar and bounty'' I said, my mother got up from her kneeling position and shared away the dirt from her hands: '' okay honey but wherever you two going to go later today are you taking her to your house?'' she asked while fixing her gloves. '' I was hoping that you would let us stay over in the house here, there must be two beds where we could stay until Sunday right?'' I asked '' yeah ofc you can stay'' she said and smiled; then I just walked back to the stall, but when I came there both horses were already perfectly saddled just waiting to go on a ride. '' wow you did that so fast; how do you know how to saddle horses?'' I asked '' I took riding lessons when I was younger'' lineah answered while getting on her horse. '' oh thats cool!'' I said while also getting on mine; '' do you want to go to a flower field? its just straight down the road not far away '' I asked '' yeah sure want to race down there?'' she asked ''race? I mean sure but-'' before I could finish she yelled ''lats one is a looser!'' and rode off off I raised after her. when we finally got there she was of course the one to be first '' that unfair you had a head start!'' I said and got off my horse. '' no its not unfair you're just mad that you lost'' she said and sticked her tongue out. we both got off our horses, she walked into the field and sat on the ground while I stood by my horse crossing my arms inform of my chest aching mad. she looked back at me and immediately got back up and walked toward me, then she put her ands on my face '' next time you'll get a head start okay?'' she said and smiled, she looked so pretty, the voice in my head was telling me to kiss her so I looked down at her lips, but before I could make a move she kissed me first. the kid was so gentle and warm, then we both pulled back from the kiss.  immediately blushed and covered her face with her hands so I couldn't see, then I realised what just happened ''are you okay?'' I asked and pulled her hands off her face, ''yes im just embarrassed, sorry if I made you uncomfortable , it just happened, im sorry-'' she said but I cut her off, '' hey its okay, I actually  liked it.''  she started blushing again ''well I did too but were going to ignore that now'' she walked back to where she was sitting and sat back down, she turned back to me because I was still standing by my horse  '' are you not going to join me?'' she asked, '' oh no I am.'' I said and walked to and sat beside her. '' its so pretty here; thanks for taking me:'' she said ''anytime'' I said. we sat there watching the clouds move. then I laid back, and she looked at me ''your hair will get dirty if you lay on ground'' she said '' ill have a shower after so I don't mind'' I said and spread one of my arms out. ''do you want to come lay here?'' I asked. she came and laid besides me and I pukked her closer to me so we were lying down in a cuddling position. she turned on her side and put one of her hands over me to jug me. I know this was kinda early since we only actually started talking since 2 days but I dint really care, then we started having a conversation, we laid there like this talking for a really long time, '' lets go back now'' I said and got up, but she we looked to were the horses were standing they were gone. ''were are the horses?'' Lineah asked, '' oh we just have to whistle and they'll come back'' I said and whistled. then our horses came running towards us. then we got on them and went back to the farm. she took go the staples from the horses and left hem stay outside for a bit. ''my mom wanted to meet you, lets go say hi to her'' I said,  took her hand and walked toward where my mother was. ''Mom?'' I asked waiting for a response, ''im here!'' someone yelled we followed that voice to find my mom ''ohh you two really took your time going out, it was 3pm when you left and now its already 8pm!'' she said and took her gloves off ''yeah we had a lot of fun'' I said and turned to lineah, she just smiled. ''okay well girls, we will be leaving now because its quite late have fun'' my mom said, she walked passed me but stopped to give me a kiss on my cheek, then she just called my siblings and my dad to enter the car. my sister walked past us ''new girlfriend?'' she asked and raised one eyebrow. '' no Mia.'' I answered ''make her yours then.'' she said and walked off, gosh this was so embarrassing because she said it right in front of Lineah too. my brother also waked by but didn't say anything. me and him never really had a bond or anything. he's more of a quiet middle child, he never wanted attention nor talked to anyone. when I was still living at home he also rarely came out of his room, I mean yes, he had a mini fridge and a bathroom in his room but he could've still come out from time to time but he chose not to. I didn't see my dad. my mother waved at us from the car as they drove off.