Final Love

Melissa

cw marijuana use, toxic relationship and abuse, toxic home mention of sa, self inflicted injury 

when I woke up in the morning she was gone. I looked around me to see if she was maybe just already up and even Gott up to check the bathroom. nothing. I waled out the room rubbing my eyes hoping she might be just around  somewhere but she was nowhere. I dont get it why is she just gone? where the hell is she. I walked back to the room to get my phone. searching trough my contacts till I come to her name press it and wait for the call to ring. one ring, two rings, three  shit why is she not picking up. four, five I almost gave up ut then I heard her soft voice trough my phone ''hey whats up?'' I was relived ''hey so where are you? I got up and you weren't here I'm kinda worried'' ''dw I'm fine'' she was answering differently whats that about I wanted to ask where she was nut right before I could form a sentence ''Okay I gotta go see you'' before I even got to answer the phone started beeping signalising that she ended the call. oh something was off I stared at my phone for a little till a text popped up 

don't call again, I have ur keys and ur car. ill be home by 7 x 

what I do not get it why is she being do weird. I stared at the wet wondering if I should text back. my debate settled on don't text back and I turned my phone off now I Gotta be alone again for the whole day or what. damn I realised how lonely I was without her. I got the kitchen and tree some grapes in my mouth looking around for something for breakfast.my eyes found a waffle tostie that I decided on. my mind was still racing. where was she? was she with someone? is she safe? because why couldn't she talk to me on the phone I couldn't get my mind of of anything and I also couldn't relax closing she was somewhere and I didn't know where with all these people that basically harass her my thoughts grew bigger. I decided that I was just gonna roll up a joint. maybe thats gonna help me chill a little. well at least till she's back. it was already 4pm so I guess not that long. I wondered when she left and how long I was asleep before noticing while rolling one up.  I sat on the balcony smoking and being on my phone. I was right that did ease my mind a little  until the doorbell rang.

 I thought about opening It. I mean it couldnt be Lineah she has my keys apparently my thinking took to long because the doorbell rang was followed by the loud bangs on my door. geez chill out whats that important?? I walked over to the door and opened it. Melissa. ''what the hell are you doing here'' ''chill out blondie wheres lineah?'' ''why do you wanna know for '' she rolled her eyes and pushed herself past me inside my apartment ''what the fuck?''  her eyes wandered across the room moving hr head side to side she peaked into every room hats open then sighed '' so she's not here orrrr'' she dropped herself on the couch crossing her legs ''can you get out you're not welcome here'' I blurted out ''chill out why are you so agressive'' she motioned with her hand for me to sit down too 'I pulled up my face giving her a dirty look but still giving into her request ''so basically I came to appologise'' she turned to me and drew her he'd to be in a tided position. I raised an eyebrow ''I know I know what you might think but its genuine like I realised that I shouldn't have done all that shit to leiah neither should I have terrorised you I'm sorry abt that idk I didn't like the fact lea was dating someone, I shouldnt have done all of that. I mean y'all can still hate me I won't be mad about that I just wanted y'all to know that I'm actually sorry'' seemed genuine ''  rubbed my eyes wit one hand  ''and I thought you wanna pull some circus like shit again but I'm pleasantly surprised'' she crinkled her face ''you telling me I'm a clown?'' I nodded ''yea well I guess you could say that since y'all saw the shit I've been doing, but anyway thats what I came here for and thats also why I searched for lineah'' she got up and brushed down her skirt to make sure none of it was riding up. then she looked at me because I was still sat on the couch. I quickly glanced away from her making sure she wouldn't catch eye contact because id dint know if shed see that my eyes are red from smoking, she leaned down a bit ''girl are you stoned.'' she laughed ''I gave up trying to hide my fave and look straight up. I thought she was gonna call me some type insult ''where do y'all get this hit from bro I wanna smoke too???'' I was taken aback I thought for a second if doing what I wanted to was a good Idea ''still have like half a joint left and some more weed? f you wanna join?'' she smiled ''hell yes'' she walked over to the wall next to ihefront door and abandoned her heels and long coat on the floor while I walked back outside on the balcony. she sat on the other chair facing me and I lit up giving it straight to her since it was apparently her first time. she took a hit and raised her eyebrows at it.''idk I expected it differently'' she looked out not he view ''yk you're actually nice like idk I shouldn't have harassed you like that damn'' I laughed ''stop being sorry now its fineeee'' she passed me the joint ''how long does it take to hit?''  shrugged '' idk  maybe like 20 mins'' she nodded at me and we started chatting. she was actually quite nice. id like t have her asa friend, we were pretty similar I person and I liked the way she was. ''ouuu I'm talking to someone new nowwww'' she puled up her while turning it to the back. a Polaroid of her and a girl, she was kissing her cheek in the picture. I nodded in approval ''she's pretty'' i said ''I know right, she's so kind I like her sm her names Amanda I met her at a bar when I was drinking alone after harassing y'all the first time-, she laughed -we fucked that night'' she looked  at me ''too did she let u hit yet or y'all just friends'' I snorted ''I'm not gonna tell you about my sex life with lineah, but yea she's my girlfriend'' she smiled ''gooooood for youuu'', she leaned to me and in a lower tone said ''so you did lay her already right'' with amore pleading look for an answer, I rolled my eyes ''you'd not come here sit you ass down and ask me if I fucked her yet or not, matter fact actually why did you come here disturbing my peace with one of her parents like two days ago if you're talking to someone new??'' ''they made me but thats not the answer I wanted now tell me, did you see her naked, or. no'' she laughed out waiting for my response I shook my head ''yeah maybe a couple times'' and laughed too she leaned back again pleased with herself and the response. '' but what do you mean they made you??'' she sighed '' so basically lineah has like really weird parents right they're abusive and homophobic and what not. they wanted lineah to date a guy and Shen she came out to them as lesbian they were obviously in rage. they kew my parents for ages before that. sooo they kinda teamed up with my parents, they said that they wanna set me up with her and they'll pay them for me to treat her badly. in opes that if I'm abusive towards her she'd change her mind about being gay or so, I didnt want to do that but at the time I dint really have a choice. my parents threatened a lot of things to me so I decided to do it and after a while I got way way too comfortable to threat her badly. baisiclly she wa sth one id take my stress and frustration from my parents out on, soo yeah.'' ''wait but what did you do to her'' she sighed and looked embarrassed ''I used to hit her n stuff like shout at her or insult her, before you think of it I never abused her sexual or so, id never do that. I never even touched hr or asked her to fuck. I knew she was a virgin and I didn't want take something special from he especially if I was such an awful person to her. the most I did was maybe kiss or hug her here and here but thats all, I'm still very sorry ant everything like I should've never done that that to her she's so sweet and genuine like that probably really messed with her'' damn that was a lot, I thought she was just a bad person who made really bad decisions in the past but thats like way worse then anything.'' you really need to apologise to her I mean thats really bad. obv I'm sorry for you too but damn'' I said ''yeaaa'' she sounded so disappointed in  herself it was actually sad to see and hear. ''I'm glad for her tho she found someone who can love her right tho'' she smiled at me. she quickly looked up ant Lilly hit the bottom of her eyes with her index finger ''gosh this is making me emotional I regret doing all this so so much'' I gave her a pity smile and she composed herself again.i heard a climber from inside and the door suddenly opened. linneah was finally back. she walked towards the balcony but quickly stoped at the entrance of it ''what the fuck? what is she doing here?? and why are you chilling with her like that?? Melissa get out now'' ''lineah listen I came-''  she cut her off ''I don't wanna hear it ok? don't talk to me get your shit and leave. NOW!'' I got up from my seat and walked towards her holding m arms out to touch her my the shoulders ''linea love listen to her'' she glared at me and took a step back shaking her head ''don't touch me, you're on her side now?,- tears formed In her eyes rolling down her cheek - you saw with you own eyes, how horrible she is and you're standing here telling me to listen to her?? whats there to listen'' she took another step back ''did you just pretend to believe me or what.''  I felt so bad, she probably felt so betrayed now. she wiped the tears from her face and turned around walking to the bedroom. I yelled out for her ''lineah please wait-'' ''shut up'' she brushed me off and continued talking slamming the bedroom door behind her. I turned to Melissa she was looking down at her lap '' I should probably leave..'' she got up walking towards the front door  putting her heels back on, tears running from her own face. '' Im sorry it ended like this'' she shook her head forcing a smile, when she was done dressing herself she stood up straight. ''Make sure she dosent cut herself or so I'm worried about that'' . shit. shit. shit. shit I forgot about that  ''well ill see you around'' I said basically pushing her to leave, she took the hint and left without another word shutting the door behind her.

 I rushed to the bedroom and rbasically ripped ope the door scanning for lineah. there she was laying on the bed her back facing me. ''lineah?'' I said gently putting a hand on her shoulder ''don't touch me'' she moved away from me ''linea I'm sorry'' I sat on the bed trying to get somewhat closer to her. I waited for a moment till she finally gave in, turning to me. I pulled her in my arms and she curled up hiding her face I held hershel was wearing a hoodie and sweatpants so I couldnt tell if I was late. ''please don't be mad''she sobbed I was confused because I still didn't see anything to be mad about until I watched her bloodstained sleeve. my heart dropped. I was late. and she had done that again I sat up and pulled her arm to me, ''she stared sobbing more as she realised that I have noticed. ''please don't be mad, please'' she brought her other arm up to her face wiping her tears but they kept pouring out . I took a second to compose myself before pulling up the sleeve to see ''shit'' I whispered to myself she looked up to my face with fear ''I'm sorry I really am'' I got up and grabbed a pair of bandages and tissues then gently cleaned up her arm and bandage it up when I was done I helped her get out or the stained hoodie. she sat there In just a bra while I looked for another hoodie of mine she could wear her still sobbing on the bed. I finally found one and slipped it right over her he'd the sat down on the bed. she looked at me ''I know youre mad and I'm sorry'' I pulled her closer to me cuddling her 'Im not mad and theres nothing for you to be sorry for I should be sorry I should've  not let her in and asked you before but she really wanted to talk to you.''  she swallowed '' I know I should've listened I think I overreacted'' she said ''no oyou didn't overreact, your reaction was valid from your view'' she thought about it for a moment. ''is she gonna come back tomorrow?'' ''well she wanted to, she really wanted to talk to you but if you dontwant that ill just tell her she can come in when she does come.'' she hugged me tighter ''its fine along as ur here'' i kissed her forehead and she look up to peck my lips. I took her hand and played with it ''please don't do that anymore? or at least when you want to, tell me, il be there for you and maybe you don't feel like it anymore'' ''yes I will I'm sorry'' I looked at he again ''do you promise?'' she nodded and went in for another kiss. ''where were you today?'' I asked her ''I was at my parents house. my other sister Kindly let me know that my parents were gone for the weekend so I went over to pack all my things up, theboxegs are all in the back of ur car.and by the way I told you not to call because I don't want my sister to know I'm dating someone, she's kinda on my parents side and since she's my twin, I'm afraid she might mess with you'' I nodded and puled her tighter to me '' ill hep you carry them boxes up tomorrow morning.'' we then stopped talking. I just stared at the ceiling wondering how tomorrow is gonna be and if shell be fine with the stress of talking to Melissa agin or if it was gonna end the sam way like today. I could tell by the rhythmic breathing that she already fell asleep and I also decided that it was time for me to doze off and sleep. and see what tomorrow is gonna bring 

a/n. his guys another quick update cuz I kinda like writing atm. I don't know if my activity is gonna stay like that just but Illl try toot leave the story hanging 

lots of love