letters [ poetry ] ✔︎

ana - a(n unfinished????) slam poem [tw: eating disorder]

you look happy even though your face is caving in

"being small is freedom" you tell me

as if its the truth and as if its healthy

you tell me you havent eaten in forever

tell me the hunger is better than eating

that after awhile you dont even feel it anymore

it makes me think maybe i could have it

the flatness that seems to encompass your being

flat tummy flat chest flat backside flat everything

you tell me its a diet, youre not anorexic

like people who are are crazy

yet youre starving yourself and that

sounds a lot like anorexia to me

and youve got the skinny to prove it

you look like youve lost more than a few pounds

you say your family isnt concerned and neither are you

i feel like both should be, for you

i know i am

your heart could give out

you could faint and crack your head

you could... *shakes head*

you look happy even though your face is caving in

"being small is freedom" you tell me

as if it's normal and as if it's okay

you tell me you want to keep it up

tell me that it feels really nice

that after awhile you dont feel anything anymore

it makes me think that i dont want it

the flatness that seems to encompass your being

flat words flat personality flat jokes flat everything

you tell me youll be okay, its fine

like people will believe you

yet nobody says anything and that

sounds a lot like cowardice to me

and ive memorized the words to prove it 

you look like youre dying

a pale white ghost floating around

and yet you smile and tell me

"being small is freedom."