RUTHLESS

36. Violence is over

Chapter Thirty six of Ruthless
Me😥 I'm tired of Violence ❌❌❌

"Why did you have to slap him?"

It took Tacha a very deep long breath of silence before she looked up at Natasha to answer her question. Her voice coming out in a whisper. "I was just angry he hit someone who was having an harmless discussion with me. I was angry he wouldn't let me be to be candid." Pain etched in her eyes, as if tied up in her stomach that she could barely breathe. "I didn't know I would hurt him that much. I--care about Nathan. And I really can't explain how much have come to like him no matter what I tell myself. He completely ignored me through out the party...and, every time I tried looking into his eyes, I knew it was my fault he didn't look happy through out the party. It was then I knew how much I affected him. How much he liked me. I tried to apologise, but I never had access to him. Never. He walked past me many times, his eyes as cold as when I first met him. It seems he hates me now."

When Tacha hit Nathan on the face, the only saving grace she enjoyed at the moment was because he cared so much about her. It had gotten to the point that he knew he would rather walk away than yell to her face like she did, getting her to explode all the tears she had in store for him.

That night, Tacha took side with Ricko.

"I will not allow you stand here and harass anyone of us like you always do!" Her eyes cocked at Nathan like he was a piece of shit, her eyes glaring so deeply that he could feel the sudden hatred that developed in her eyes towards him. He knew any other action taken by him could result into a misunderstanding that might succeeded in making Tacha hate him forever. He didn't want that. He was so pissed, fuming that he could not even explain himself to her, but managed to curb himself. If they were finally going to go their separate ways, he wouldn't want to be a douchebag to her anymore. He expected Tacha to at least ask him why he had to do what he did, but instead, he was embarrassed by her. At that moment, he regretted his actions. For thinking she was worth the pursuit when she wasn't ready to be with him, ever. 

"Thinking you can beat up anyone because you are Nathan Brown is a total bullshit! We are only having a quiet discussion and you have no right to do what you just did!" Her eyes fixed on Nathan. "You have no right Nathan. I was never your girlfriend, nothing to you if I will have to be honest with myself with how you treated me, and this man right here is my ex." Tacha shifted her gaze to Ricko who was stunned by Tacha's braveness. Tacha eyed him.  "Even if he's a bloody cheater who slept with my cousin, and doesn't deserve me speaking up for him. But... I ain't doing this for him." Tacha glared at Nathan, anger emitting from every word that escaped her mouth, as if looking for a day like this to tell him what she still had in mind. Her chest going up and down.

"This is for you Nathan. To leave me alone, and let me move on with my life. Please... I really want to." She dragged, and her eyes became red, the fierceness in her voice betraying her as her voice became weak, sounding less strong like when she started. She pushed on still, determined to say all she had to say. "Please...I will appreciate it if you don't have to invite me to any of your gatherings, following me about, beating the people around me, and... looking at me that way with those eyes after what we agreed on. We agreed to move on, which should be the reason you shouldn't have invited my team to this party or not include everyone. It really makes me sick that I have to come around where my heart stays heavy, unable to breathe well...because I really don't know what's gonna happen every time I see you." Tacha paused, her voice obviously shaking, trying to ease her chest going up and down after confessing how much Nathan had been affecting her. 

Tacha brought her voice down, directing her gaze away from Nathan. "That's the true fact Nathan. It's hard seeing you--but realising... realising I could never be--anything to you." A tear rolled down her eyes, and immediately she used that opportunity to walk away. "Excuse me please." Tacha wiped the tear away, walked back into the hall to her seat, and left the party after about two hours of sitting restlessly. She left before the party was over.