I live my life for you (BOOK 2)

32

Bea

"T-tumayo ka na" Jho

Pinipigilan ko ang sarili kong maiyak ng sobra pero hindi ko maiwasan na maluha

Pagkatayo ko agad akong yinakap ni Jho

"I'm s..sorry Bea.......s..sorry......m...maybe we're t..too l..late for t..this" Jho's crying while hugging me

"I understand Jho" sabi ko at ako na ang nagpatahan sa kanya

"Shhhh stop crying now, I'm fine. I respect your decision"

"You m...mean y..you're letting me m..marry N...nico?" Jho sobs

I nodded

"Tahan na Jho you're tired na oh. Matulog ka na"

Pumasok na kami sa bedroom

"Jho you shower first"

"Why, are going somewhere?" Jho

"I'll just fix something sa labas"

"Ok balik ka ha?" Jho said and I nodded

Pumunta ako sa kabilang room at pagkapasok ko naglakad ako papalapit sa bed at napaluhod nang marating ko ang side ng bed

Dito ko na ibinuhos ang pag iyak ko

I'm crying real hard. Ang sakit sakit ng nararamdaman ko ngayon

Jho will never be mine now, I lost her.

I can't even breathe properly dahil na rin sa pag iyak ko

"Jho I l..love y..you so m...much......w..why c..can't you m..marry me?.......P....paano na a...ako Jho?.....h..how can I a..afford to s..see you h...having a f..family with Nico.......I t..thought we w...would s...still m...make our p...plans c...come into r..reality......p...pano na ang m...mga p..plano natin Jho? P....pano na t...tayo?!"

"I w...would r..rather end m...my life now t..than l...living my l...life without y..you by my s...side"

"I w...wanna d..die now" nanghihina kong sabi

Bigla nalang may naramdaman akong yumakap sa likod ko

It's Jhoana

"L...love no p...please d..don't e..end your l...life j...just because of m...me.............nooo" Jho cries

"W..why are y..you here? T...take a r..rest now Jho"

"Bea I l...love you.......s..sorry for c..causing y..you so m...much p...pain" Jho

"If y...you love me t...then w..why can't y...you choose t..to m...marry me........Jho we're t...talking a...about m...marriage, t...this is l...lifetime ...........k...kung k...kaya mong m...mabuhay ng w...wala ako......ako h....hindi"

"S...sorry Bea.........I'm r..really s...sorry" Jho

"P...puro nalang ba s..sorry Jho? F...fight f...for me n..naman..........I can't o...own you if y...you d..don't want to b...be owned b..by me" sabi ko at napaupo na ako sa floor

"B...because s...someone's owning me a...already Bea...........I l...love you but I'm f...faithful to the man I w...will m...marry" Jho

"Y...you're w...words k...killing me Jho a...alam mo ba y...yun? You d...don't k...know h...how much I regretted b..betraying you b...before, t...that ruined o..our r..relationship.......e...ever s...since the d...day you c..came back e...even if you s...say you l...love me...a...alam kong m...may n...nagbago Jho"

We're both crying ng magkaharap until Jho hugs me

"B...bei m...minahal k...kita ng s...sobra......I g...gave you e...everything" Jho

"Minahal mo ako..........d...do you r..really s..still l...love me Jho? Or y...you're j...just doing t...this to s...save me f...from s...sorrows"

"No.....I l...love you Bea" Jho at bumitaw sa hug namin para matignan ako

"M...maybe you just l...love me as a f...friend"

"No love....no h...hindi yan t...totoo........I w...want to m...marry you......n...nagkataon l...lang na d...dumating si N...nico.....he w...waited f..for me" Jho

"Ako Jho.....h...hindi ba k...kita h...hinintay?"

Hindi na nakasagot si Jho dahil umiiyak nalang ito

Magkatabi kaming nakaupo sa floor at nakasandal ang back namin sa side ng bed

Wala ng nagsalita samin hanggang sa tumahan na kami

"Bei balik na tayo sa other room, tulog na tayo" Jho

"What time will you go home tomorrow?"

"Morning time" Jho

"Hatid na kita bukas"

"Wag na magpapasundo ako" Jho

"I want to see you until our last meeting"

"Sa Batangas ako uuwi" Jho

"It's fine"

"Nandun si papa" Jho

"What now? Kahit ano pang gawin niya sa'kin I'm ready to face it"

"Ok but I won't let papa hurt you naman" Jho

"I'm used to being hurt Jho, you don't need to protect and defend me anymore"

"Don't say that" Jho

Bumalik na kami sa other room para matulog na

"Jho you sleep now punta lang ako sa balcony"

"It's late already kailangan mo ng matulog" Jho

"Oo sunod ako, I promise"

Pumunta ako sa balcony dito sa loob ng bedroom namin

Lumabas ako para mag yosi

Iniisip ko kung magiging maayos at maganda ba ang buhay ni Jho kay Nico

I just hope that Jho will be happy and comfortable in Nico's arms

Nang matapos na akong mag isip isip bumalik na ako sa loob pero nag toothbrush muna ako bago humiga

Pagkahiga ko akala ko tulog na si Jho hindi pa pala

"You smoked" Jho

"Isa lang naman"

"Bakit?" Jho

"Masakit eh"

"I pray for your safety and health Bea, I don't want you to get ill" Jho

"It's fine"

"Shut up tulog na tayo" Jho hugs me and I hug her back as well

I will surely miss this

"Good night love, I love you" sabi ko

"Good night" Jho

Right after Jho's response another tear dripped from my eyes