Fake scenarios + one shots (y/n x h/n)

•going to the beach (insecure trope)•

Summer is most people's favourite season, it reminds them of sun, good weather, hapiness, water and vacation. But I always hated summers, for me it's the season wich brings back all the toxicity and bad feelings. Bodyshaming. Everyone has a perfect body and presents them in the most beautiful bikinis. Social pressure. People tell you to go outside because it's beautiful weather, they tell you to socialise and if you don't then something is wrong with you.

"You need to stand up and do something, H/n is also at the beach, aren't you exited?" Here's what people don't get, I'm an introvert, I love to spend time inside with myself, with no one around to judge. I hate how I look especially in everything that's not oversized enough to cover all the things I'm insecure about.

I hate the way I hate myself.

"I'll think about it" I tell my best friend, already made my decision , I'm not coming.

"Great, I'll pick you up at three"

"No-" and then she hangs up. I sigh, I know she just want's me to be happy and spend time with her and my other friends at the beach. I know she think's she's helping me. But she isn't.

Even though I don't want to I get up and look at my bikini, god I hat that thing but I gess there's no way around.

I put it on and look at myself in the mirror. I feel like the longer I look at myself the wors it get's. More and more flaws start to show up, a single teardrop is running down my face. I grab an oversized Shirt and pull it over my head.

At three my best friend shows up, together we drive to the beach we're three other girls and boys are already waiting. They all greet us with a hug before we lay out our towels on the sandy beach. I can't stop staring at the other girls. They all look so flawless and happy, wearing bright pink bikinis and laughing at something the boys say.

I put on my sunglasses and read my book in silence

"Do you also want some ice cream? I'm paying today" My best friends offers me

"No thank you" I hate to eat infront of people. I know I'm complaining about everything in my head and critize everything but I just can't stop it

"C'mon we're going into the water y/n" My best friend shouts before one of the boys throws her over his shoulder and runs to the water. I stay where I am, watching them having fun in the water. My best friend laughs with the boy who picked her up, sometimes I wish I was her. She is so beautiful, everyone likes her and she doesn't even has to try

"You're scared of water or something?" I look around suprised to see H/n leaning against the wall of the ice cream shop

"No" I answer him. He's wearing his bathing shorts and a white t-shirt, looking absolutely amazing.

"Do you want to go on a beach walk with me?" we've been really good friends in the past years, but little does he know I have a crush on him

"Sure" he reaches out his hand and I grab it, then he pulls me up so that I crash against his chest. But before I loose my balance he grabs me by my waist, holding me steady

"Sorry" Awkward.

We walk together for quiet a while, talking over the most random things. The sun is already setting and our friends are probably miles away

"I'm getting hot, let's go for a swim" he offers

"I'm good, but don't let me stop you, you can go for a swim" He looks at me weirdly and I start to feel uncomfortable again. I sit down and give him a sign that says "go" with my hand.

But he doesn't go, instead he sits down next to me.

"I don't want to go without you"

"Then don't" I laugh, but his face stays serious