Moonlit [POETRY]

are you dead?

Those words that you wrote to me
That of a lost girl
When your hair was still long
And your smiles were still bright
I don't know what they mean
The loneliness they show
I wonder,
Are you dead?
Sometimes I wish you were
Where you disappear silently
into the sunlight
Your hope, your smile,
Your pain,
You carry them all up with you

.

When I looked behind that day
You stood,
with tears in your eyes
The tears that I didn't see
Your eyes that were hopeful
That I would stay
And I walked away
In silence

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You never told me
That you were on the floor
Sobbing as I kicked you
Kicks that you accepted from me
That you didn't from anyone else
And I wonder,
Are you alive?
Sometimes I wish you were
Where I could hear you tell tales
Of yours and others
'World is beautiful', you told me
'The nature is kind'

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If I say hello
Would you blush?
Or would you tell me your stories?
The ones I want to hear
Just once more
Tell me,
is it too late to save you?
It can't be, can it?

.

You became me after all