Begging For You

Chapter 11

Thalia 

It's been a month. 

A month filled with sex. Sweet, hot, sweaty sex. 

When I have sex with Tommy, I sometimes think about Scott. How he used to fuck me. 

Does he ever think about me? 

More things go through my mind while Tommy fucks me. 

Julia. What are they doing with Julia? Have they found out yet? Will they ever find out?

In the beginning, it stressed me out. I can't spend my life in jail.

But since it's been a whole month, the stress has started to die down. 

I don't think about Julia anymore, barely. 

Scott still crosses my mind, every single day. 

Did I make a mistake? Will he ever forgive me?

It started to snow around here and it's cold out.  

''I'ma go out.'' Em says to me from the door. 

I sit up from the bed and look out the window, ''Em, the snow is so bad. The classes were cancelled for a reason. Why are you going out now? And where?'' 

''I like the snow and I'm meeting up with someone. I'll see you!'' She yells out before closing the door behind her. 

I shrug and lay back down to finish a chapter from my book. 

I'm on the last page when my phone rings with a text. 

Tommy: Hey

I smile to his notification. 

Me: Hey 

Tommy: What are you doing right now? 

Me: Nothing, reading. 

Tommy: Nerd 

Me: Haha 

Tommy: Sexy nerd tho 

Me: Shut up 

Tommy: Wanna come to my dorm? My roommate is out

Me: You come here.  Em is out too

Tommy: Bet. On my way. 

I smile and quickly leap out of bed to check myself in the mirror. 

I'm wearing a thick pyjama set, my hair is in a messy bun and I'm wearing my reading glasses. 

Before I can run into my closet, I hear a knock on my door. 

I sigh and open the door.

I'm surprised to see him, also standing in matching pyjama's. 

''Hey sexy.'' He says, smirking. 

''Sexy? I literally look homeless'' I say before stepping aside to let him in. 

''Nah you look cute.'' 

''So do you, very cute pyjama's.'' I say, smiling up at him. 

He grabs my waist and pushes me against the wall next to my bed. 

His lips meet mine and I feel his tongue drag over my lower lip. 

''It doesn't matter how many times we do this, you still manage to surprise me Thalia.'' He whispers. 

I close my eyes. 

His voice. 

The smile he gave me when he first laid his eyes on me. 

The butterflies when he kissed me for the first time. 

His dark hair, my hands in his hair. 

The way he whispered my name and made me feel like I was his world, maybe I was.

I felt safe with him and Julia fucked it all up. 

If it wasn't for her, I would still be with him. 

A tear rolls down my cheek as Tommy's lips drags down my neck, down my shirt. 

His lips meet my stomach. 

''Stop.'' I say and I step aside. 

Tommy is on his knees and he looks flustered at my words. 

''What?'' He stands up and walks over to me. ''You okay? What's wrong?'' 

He rests his hands on my waist again but I push him off, ''can you leave? I don't wanna do this anymore?'' 

A smirk starts to show on his face, ''I see what's going on.'' He whispers to himself while sitting on the edge of my bed. 

''Oh yeah?'' I say, turning around to look at him. 

''You fell in love with me. Didn't you?'' 

I smile, ''what? That's what you think?'' 

He stands up, ''yes. You fell for me, I can see it in your eyes Thalia.'' 

I take a step towards him, ''listen here asshole. I let you fuck me but that's over now. I didn't fall in love with you because I'm still in love with Scott. He's the love of my life and I can't get over him. Letting him go and starting something with you was the biggest mistake I ever made.'' 

He takes a deep breathe, ''so why'd you break up with him in the first place?'' 

''Because I did something. Something bad and I thought I could protect him from me by breaking up with him.'' 

He leans his forehead on mine, ''what'd you do Thalia? Did you cheat?'' 

I push him off, ''get the fuck out. I can't believe you're so arrogant.'' 

''Well you're a fucking slut.'' He says before opening the door and slamming it behind him. 

I jump onto my bed and start crying in my hands. 

Scott has taken over my entire fucking life. 

I let my head fall onto my pillow when I get a call, from my mom. 

I wipe my tears and take a deep breathe before answering. 

''Hey mom.'' I say. 

''Hey love, do you think you could fly home next week? I have a new boyfriend and I'd love for you to meet him.'' 

I hear her smile in her words and it makes me happy she's smiling again.

''I'd love to meet him, of course I'll fly  home next week mom.'' 

It's actually a perfect opportunity for me to talk to Scott.