Begging For You

Chapter 17

Scott 

I can't breathe. 

'' Scott, I loved you. I really did but you didn't make me happy. I hope you become happy with a nice girl.

Why would she say I didn't make her happy while the day before she literally told me she was the happiest when she was with me?

That thought goes through my head, over and over again. 

''You make me so happy Scott, I'm the happiest when I'm with you. I'm so glad I met you.'' 

I cry and I cry and I cry.  

I look up at Thalia who is still in shocked, sitting on my countertop, topless. 

''Scott?'' She says my name so quiet and gentle, like I'm about to break. 

I stand up and pull my pants back up. 

My tattoo's are sweaty. 

I go with my hand trough my hair. 

''I'm sorry.'' I say. 

She sighs, ''this was such a bad idea.'' She says, jumping off the countertop.

I follow her into my living room as she puts on her bra and shirt back on. 

''It was. I never should've called you.'' 

She turns around and I feel a hot pain on my cheek, she slapped me. 

''What the fuck Thalia?!'' 

''I never should've come back here in the first place. We're done, we are so fucking done.'' She yells. 

''I know you don't regret it.'' I say, grabbing her wrist. 

I'm so much taller then her and she looks a little scared. 

''Let me go, Scott.'' 

''No Thalia. Remember that one morning in your room? Where I told you I wanted to be with you forever, marry you?'' 

A tear rolls down her cheek, ''yes. What are you saying?'' 

''I ment it. I still do. But you broke up with me, first in that janitors closet and then through a call.'' 

''Scott.'' 

''I love you Thalia, I fucking love you.'' 

''What about Sophia? You love her, don't you?'' 

''I did but not even half as much as you. You know that. I look at you and..'' 

''And what?'' 

''And I see the girl I wanna marry.'' 

''Fuck you, you can't do that too me.'' 

She pushes me off and she walks to the door. 

''Thalia.'' 

''What do you want from me Scott? Then you say you want me and then you're moaning Sophia's name and crying.'' 

I drop myself on one of my dinner table chairs and sigh, ''I don't know.'' 

''You don't know?'' She repeats. 

''I don't know! Okay?'' 

''What do you mean you don't know?'' She takes a step closer too me. 

''I mean I don't know.'' I take a deep breathe, ''I loved Sophia, I did but she wasn't like you Thalia, she always wanted to be safe and never try anything new. She was a..'' 

''She was a what?'' She asks me, also taking a seat at my dinner table. 

''A boring high school maths teacher.'' 

She starts laughing, ''why does that not surprise me?'' 

''Why are you laughing? This isn't funny.'' I say. 

''It kind of is.'' She says, with a smile. 

I smile too.

''Hey Scott?'' She grabs my hand. 

''It's okay. That you're having mixed feelings about.. whatever this is.'' 

I smile brighter, ''thank you for understanding Thalia.'' 

''Of course.'' 

''I can't believe you moaned her name dude.'' She says with a smile. 

''Shut up, you know I'm sorry.'' 

''I know, I know. I'm sorry too.'' 

''For what?'' I ask her. 

''For the way I just ..''

Her phone rings. 

''You just what?'' I look at her while she takes out her phone. 

''Hold on.'' 

She walks to my bedroom and closes the door. 

I hear muffled talking. 

I decide to quietly walk to the bedroom door. 

''But wait, what? Mom please. No!'' 

Quiet, I can't hear her mom on the other line. 

''At least give me a chance to.. to explain!'' 

She's crying, what the fuck?

I hear her walk to the door with a pace. 

I take a few steps back before she opens it. 

She looks at me, her cheeks are wet and her eyes are puffy. 

''My mom.. she..'' 

''She.. what?'' 

''She kicked me out.''