DANS POV
I woke to the sound of my alarm beeping. "Go away" I groaned hitting it, I was not looking forward to today. I heard footsteps "ge' up Dan!" Phil called from my door, I hid my head under a pillow "no." He sighed and pulled my duvet off. "Phil! it's cold!" I said wrapping myself into a tight ball for warmth. "C'mon Dan, we need to be in Manchester in 4 hours." Phil said. I bit my lip so I wouldn't cry and stood up "yeah." I whispered grabbing my clothes and going into the bathroom. I only then realized Phil was In a suit. Walking back I grabbed my suit and took a long hot shower. When I walked out Phil was talking to the camera and I grimaced realizing I would have to go back to that someday soon. I knocked on Alice's door to find her in a dress crying into her pillow. "Alice?" I asked carefully stepping closer to her. "I want him back Dan.." She groaned and whispered at the same time. I sat next to her like I did when we were young and whispered the truth "he's not coming back, but we still have the memories.." She buried her head in my chest "I know..." Se paused for awhile. "Remember.. Remember the time we all went on a canoe together.. And he he flipped it upside down, and it floated away?" She asked laughing. I laughed too "ha, or the time he went outside and got stuck in a tree and dad had to get him out?" She nodded excitedly. We did that for awhile, laughing at old memories and crying at the same time. "Guys? We need to go." Phil said outside the door knocking lightly. We opened the door and walked out silently. The ride there was utterly awful. All anyone did was cried and it was silent, too long a time to think. Finally we arrived.
Alice's POV
"Alice! Danny!" My mum called upon seeing our car. Phil stood awkwardly to the side as I hugged my mum, who had been crying. "Mum!" I said into her blouse hugging her tighter. We sat around the couch talking. Until my dad announced it was time to go. I was numb. So annoyingly numb. We went to the church, socializing and sitting around. Finally people began to talk about him so I sobbed in the background. I felt alone, paralyzed, trapped, and helpless. The rest passed on a blur.
1 month later! Alice's POV
"Hey Ally, so Phil, PJ, Chris and I are going to the park with Carrie at 2:00 you in?" Dan asked over the phone. "Yeah" I replied hanging up. Then I went back to crying. It had hit me like a ton of bricks, depression. Scars covered my wrists and thighs to prove it. I managed to pull myself out of bed and shower. When I stepped out I found it was time to be leaving for the park I sighed and put on my 'happy face'. I pulled up to find Carrie running towards me. I hugged her "hey Carrie, how are ya?" I asked casually. We had gotten close, so had Phil and I, PJ and I had a bit of awkwardness between us. Only when I backed away from the hug did I realize what was happening. "Daan.." I warned seeing at least 50 people flood in. "I'm sorry Alice, but I had to come and I didn't want you all at home... By yourself.." He said his voice getting quieter and quieter as he went on. "The mistake I made when I was 16? It was a MISTAKE Dan, I'm not going to do it again!" I screamed causing PJ and Phil to walk over. "I'm sorry for not wanting to lose you to it again!" He screamed almost in my face. "Oh so now I'm an it too?" I asked holding back tears and stomping away. "No! Alice I didn't mean that! Alice c'mon!" He begged but I kept going. I didn't really know where I was going, just that I was walking. Suddenly I felt a hand grip mine tightly. I spun around to find PJ. His eyes as always were mesmerizing, his face was set into a sad type of scowl and his hair was blown around by the wind. I took a breath in not saying a word. Finally he spoke up "Alice, I don't know what happened but Dan is really freaking out please go back." I gave a short nod "yeah." I sighed. He brought me into an awkward hug which felt great. He let go and we walked back to the park. "So what should I do here?" I asked as we approached the area. "Don't get in the way, and don't make any physical contact with us." I blushed "physical contact?" I repeated wondering what he meant. "Yeah, they'll think your dans girlfriend or something." He gave a nervous smile his hands dug deep into his pockets. We reached the gate where Dan stood hugging fans. PJ was stood beside me, and Phil to my left. Eventually Dan took a break to and I rested on his shoulder "Dan, I swear I won't do it again can I please go home?" "No, I'm sorry but I can't lose you." I sighed before remembering PJs words and instantly standing up straight. Too late we were getting weird looks already. I looked up to find Dan blushing. "Come with me.." He said harshly dragging me by the hand. "Ow.. Dan that hurts." I cried as he dragged me along like a doll. "Here!" He announced showing me that I was in front of a large stage. "Why?" I asked simply he just smiled. I took a seat and noticed I was getting envious and dangerous stares from teens. I ran to Phil "your fans are vicious, I think they want to kill me!" I told him hiding. He laughed "they think your going out with Dan.." "He's my.. BROTHER." I reminded him. "They don't know that!" I nodded and waited for whatever Dan was going to say. I heard the microphone squeak followed by a chorus of yells and groans. "So I would like a special lay to come up.. She is in a relationship with me as my.." He took a long dramatic pause and all the fans seemed to lean forward. "Sister!" He finished causing the girls to get annoyed but also laugh. Seeing as I was his only sister here I stood up and made my way up. I stood nervously behind Dan. "Yeah this is my little sister Alice, now you can go." He said quickly. "Dan?" I asked making him turn "later" he said through gritted teeth. I smiled "ookay!" And then I lightly touched his neck. He jerked forward, and turned towards me angrily. I nodded and walked off stage. I could feel him staring at me but it was worth it, he had been treating me not only like a child, but also making a point that he didn't like me. I knew him well, and did this all the time, just as he would annoy me. Finally he walked off stage and Phil began to walk up. I was sitting when I noticed Dan running towards me with something in his hand. Was that whipped cream? "Dan no!" I yelled causing several people to stare at us. Instead of looking Dan was just grinning and spraying whipped cream on me. I out of habit jumped on him causing him to barrel over. "Does anyone want to see his hobbit hair in person?" I asked greeted by a chorus of screams. "Can someone get some clean plain water?" I asked smiling as I held Dan down pressing on his sternum. He bucked forward countless times each unsuccessful. A girl of around 16 ran up with a glass of water. I thanked her and then poured it on Dans head. As I poured it he took advantage and pushed me off him. I knew this would happen though. Now was the spilt second of time I had, since this was going another two hours. I gave a nod to myself ran forward, grabbed the keys out of Dans pocket and ran towards the car. It only took a couple seconds before I was inside the car starting it up. I heard a knocking and looked over to see PJ. I unlocked the doors and he climbed in. "Dan didn't send you, did he?" I asked locking the doors again. "He did, but I don't think your going back are you?" I laughed and told him no. "Then let's go!" He told me and I began To drive. "Peej... I have no clue where I'm going." I admitted. "Do you want to go to my house?" He asked turning towards me with an amazing smile. I smiled back, "show me the way." I responded pulling to a stop. He stood up and we switched spots. I had been to PJ's house only 3 times before? Each time with Dan. I stood up, so that my face was almost level with his. I sucked in a breath of fresh air and walked to the other side. We both sat and the rest of the ride was silent. We arrived at his house so I stepped out jumping up and down. He jogged forward and opened the door. A small puppy ran out. "You have a dog?" I asked leaning down to pet it. "Yeah just watching it for Jamie's sister." He laughed at the dogs jumping and finally gathered her in his arms. I walked in after him closing the door "so... Is anyone here?" I asked. PJ shook his head "nope, I'm all alone." Oh I mouthed and then took a step forward. "What do you want to do?" He asked walking forward "Zelda?" I brought it up remembering he loved it. He smiled and ran to the couch where a Nintendo and an X-box were plugged in. "Oo Nintendo.." I admired. He nodded and held out the remote for me. We began to play "DIE BORE DIE I NEED TO SAVE ZELDA!" He screamed at the screen while a bore walked behind him. After an hour of playing there was a knock on the door. I expected it to be Dan. So I opened it, but instead I found Brandon's friend. I turned quickly fear taking over. "Uh.. I need to go Peej,Dans probably worried." I said quickly tripping over my words. I ran to my car and got in pushing past the boy on the way. I drives to Dans flat and knocked on his door. Phil opened it looking tired. "Where were you?" He asked pulling the door open. I stepped in "PJ's, so are you alone here or.." I asked walking towards the couch. Phil sighed "Dans with some girl." I looked over at him. "Do you.. Ya know.. Do you like him?" I asked awkwardly. Phil blushed before bursting out into laughter. "You don't believe in Phan do you?" He asked through laughs. "What the poop is Phan?" I asked extremely confused. "The pairing of Dan and I.." He stated as if it was obvious. "You guys are so close it's weird!" I reminded him so he could see my side. "I guess, but were both straight." He laughed and shrugged. "So just can't get a girlfriend then?" I teased him. He stuck his tongue out "oh I have thousands of girls falling for me." I nodded "indeed you do but seeing as half live in America and the other half is below 16..." "Don't disc my fans!" He called tackling me. "Phil!" I yelled as he pulled me to the ground. He turned around and grabbed a marker. "Phil what are you-" I asked when he began to bring the marker to my face. "What are you drawing!?" I asked alarmed. "Mustache.." He replied still sitting on my chest. I grabbed for the marker but Phil threw it away even though he hadn't drawn it yet. Just then Dan opened the door, Phil was sitting on me, in the middle of the room, his face close to mine. "What the fuck is going on here!" He shouted. Oh god, he is going to murder Phil. Phil jumped up his hands in the air as Dan stalked forward not looking towards me. "Phil what are you doing!" He shouted angrily. "Dan.. We weren't doing anything I swear, we were just playing around." Phil replied trying to make it seem reasonable. "You were fucking straddling her. And Alice what are you doing with a guy when he's 6 years older then you!" He was fuming mad and deciding who to yell at. "Dan we weren't-" he lifted his arms in the air causing me to cover my face. I saw him put them down slowly almost ashamed of himself. Phil stepped closer explaining the situation. I let my arms rest by my sides as Phil calmed Dan down. At the end he breathed out deeply and walked out. "I should get going.." I told Phil leaving. "Bye!" He called back as the door closed.
*author note*
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